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assalamuallaikum...

kamu sangat manja LALA!wake up...wake up...

arini sume kua dating...senyap sunyi 1 blok!haha...so,tinggal la sy sorang2 dgn laptop tcinta ni!dgn keje yg blh tahan byk...tp,still mbuang masa dgn tenet!mbaca tanpa gangguan kelembapan internet...hee~esok da nk balik pilah n start d same routine again....haih!

petang i decided to go out...nk g kedai mustika ratu, baya bill maxis, nak makan byk2 n nk tenangkan fikiran...i realize that i need to walk alone in quite a far distance from my hostel...bout 3km !i's quite a weird feeling sket, especially for those places i used to drive to reach there n now i have to walk utk ke sana...mula2 rs penat, takot yela,byk PATI and peragut kat area sini...but, sy tringat n pujuk diri sy...dulu,bila xde kemudahan, sy boleh je berjalan jauh smbil bwa barang2 berat, bertukar2 bas, berdiri lama dlm bas, layan kerenah2 manusia di jalan n dalam bas...sume tu xjadi masalah pon, malah sy enjoy gile jalan2 naik bas!tambah2 kalau dpt tempat duduk la kn...hii!tringat masa stat clinical posting where byk gile buku nk beli n kami tinggal di serdang...so,need to travel to k.l from serdang utk beli buku2 tebal2 cm 'kumar n clerk'...berbondong2 berat, jalan dlm hujan dan bila balik,penat mcm nk gile...tp,sy, miza, ira n ipah ok je masa tu!sbb tau,kalau merungut pon xguna...but skrg, sy xsuka dgn diri sy yg manja n dependent!mungkin ade hikmah jugak kete accident and masok perodua sbulan...sy rindu zaman2 sy perlu bersusah payah utk sesuatu...zaman yg sy xperlu tumpukan perhatian utk memandu, xperlu pk jam ke x, boleh tdo lena dlm bas...i miss my good old days^^

adakalanya, kita perlu mmandang pd keadaan yg di bawah kita, yg lebih teruk dan susah dr kita supaya wujud rasa syukur pd nikmat Allah...(^__^) ----> peringatan utk diri sy sendiri n anda juga

pejalan kaki contohnya patot bsyukur Allah kurniakan sepasang kaki yg kuat mbawa diri kita kemana2 dibandingkan dgn org yg tiada kaki...terpaksa berkerusi roda dan pergerakan terbatas...

sampai di Maju junction nk baya bill, tba2 seorang lelaki muda tahan saya!

"adik,abg minta tlg bg abg RM1.50...abg xcukup duit nk bayar tiket komuter"

"owh...ni bang"

"ADIK!!!"

tba2 sy nampak sorang polis blari laju kearah sy n llki td terus rampas duit d tangan sy dan lari...

ape ni???sy buat salah ape???blurr gile sorang2...huk3

"kenapa adik bg duit??"

"kenapa incik??"

"dia dah mintak duit kat semua org,dah byk dah duit die dapat...abg baru nk tahan!"

"oyeke...hmm,xpela,rezeki die kot"

"lain kali xpayah bg!"

haih...mcm2 kn...xpela,mungkin die nk bg makan anak2 die ke, dia sendiri nk beli makanan ke...mmg dah tertulis RM1.50 sy tu adelah rezeki org lain...^^,

tpkan,tkilan sket dgn maxis yg sengal ayam ni!!xpela,xpela....

rs bahagia makan dgn byknya!!!haha...walaupon sorang2, xpela...^_^ sy tetap enjoy!hee...

juasseh mcm memanggil2...siap masok dlm mimpi lg!melampau.....haissshhh!!!haha

Wasssalam...

(^__^)

patience is bitter, but its fruits is sweeter

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pengasih, Maha Penyayang.

"Bukankah Kami telah lapangkan dadamu (Muhammad)? Dan Kami pun telah menurunkan beban darimu Yang memberatkan belakangmu. Dan Kami tinggikan sebutan (nama)mu bagimu. Maka sesungguhnya bersama kesulitan ada kemudahan. Sesungguhnya bersama kesulitan ada kemudahan Maka apabila engkau telah selesai (dari sesuatu urusan), tetaplah berkerja keras (untuk urusan yang lain) dan hanya kepada Tuhanmulah engkau berharap."

it's just....

assalamuallaikum...

NEGERI SEMBILAN

td balik dr makan malam kat pekan kuala pilah...dlm pjalanan tu,nampak ade majlis besar kat stadium..."jamuan dan sesi bersama rakyat"!waa...makan free!hehe...tp bak kata pakcik van "baikla korang makan bbaya sbb nak dpt turn makan pon ntah2 sejam!" hehe...

1st time, sy makan d kawasan laluan antara kedai...it's like chinese stall style, but kat pilah, semua melayu...NICE!even just gerai2 kecil,but there're variety of foods and d taste is not bad at all!^^, i can see,byk org2 seems to wait for something...menunggu kat tepi2 kedai mcm ade event je...and suddenly berpusu2 org pegi ke jalan utama...mlayu,cina,india!ade yg just pakai baju 'kelawar', mengendong anak2 kecik sumenye BERAMAI2 pegi ke arah jalan raya utama!and barula sy tau....RAJA BARU dtg tgk rakyat!nice nye....ade kete kuda,ade org silat,ade marhaban aladdin, n yg penting ade raja n permaisuri bsame2 anaknye...hehe!'raja berjiwa rakyat!' hehehe...

ok,come to a different issue...ape anda fikir tentang tindakan lelaki masok surau perempuan saje2 without any good reason???
sy xpenah pulak come across this problems before...but i'm quite surprise it happen here in pilah when i'm all alone in d surau waiting for azan zohor...suddenly a guy masok surau tu n berlegar2 dlm surau...aik???sy sgt2 tkejut,only GOD knows...at first, sy igt sy yg salah masuk surau...but tu bukan kali pertama n kali trakhir sbb selang 10 minit, dia dtg lagi...esoknya jd benda yg sama dgn lelaki yg bbeza plak!xlangsung hiraukan aurat makcik2 n akak2 n adik2 yg dlm tu...main masok je!sy sgt2 geram la...bg sy, if even ade benda penting skali pon,bwala teman @ mungkin ckp sbelom masok...main serbu je n mata xreti jaga!it's not that the girl duduk d public, tp dalam surau, so mybe perlu ada rs segan n hormat la...n, pemilihan masa nk masuk tu, elok2 je dekat2 masok waktu n during peak time masa org nk perform solat...does it really make sense???haih...dunia skrg, even kat rumah sndiri pon xslamat, ini kan pula kat tempat awam...

even xbanyak benda yg boleh sy buat kat pilah, but byk benda yg dapat sy observe n get some new experiences here! slh satu, bersembang face to face dgn HIV patient yg jd mangsa suami die and she only knows bout that masa buat test darah masa hamil anak ke 2...and now, she needs to take care of her husband yg kene stroke...it makes me realize that it can happen to anyone! n how a person take it, it differs...if benda tu jd pd sy, sy xpasti dapat jd skuat akak ni...that's what i always say to my friend yg Allah tu xkan uji seseorg melebihi kemampuannya...n setiap org tu ujiannya berbeza2 kn...

i miss AGU very much...sob3..

that's all...thanks 4 reading!salam

"....u will realize that little imperfection makes it perfect u" -----> rosila like this quote n d video!^^,

the time keeps on moving...

 me,an nee,zizi,wani,keong

assalamuallaikum...

family medicine telah abes dgn jayanya...alhamdulillah!rasa mcm merdeka je...mcm naik year baru je!haha...mybe different exposure which not suits me  well...whatever it is, at least i know something about setting in our klinik kesihatan and klinik2 private...before this most of the specialist will said to us

'GP (general practitioner) ni only know to refer patient and not do much to manage them...they just common flu doctors lah'

but i realize that, sbenanye it's not that true...300 patients per day in a klinik kesihatan with little number of doctors managing them, it's not that easy...

'we practice gate keeping role where we ONLY refer the patient when needed"

so, mybe different specialties will see all this from different aspect la kot...lgpon,sume ade kepakaran bbeza kn...the most important is for patient's benefit...pepon,i still miss psychiatry posting!the ward, the patients and the doctors...i miss them!(^_^)

after this, we'll move to KUALA PILAH where we'll be staying in Juasseh which i dont have any idea on that place at all....hehe!but dengar2, it's like a real rural area...

'air sane kotor, jerawat akan tumbuh dgn pesat nya!'

'baik korang bawak byk baldi...air sllu xde..haha'

'kat sane,ade 1 je tempat best...1 kedai runcit!hahaha'

aih!xkesahla...i dont really care bout the place...nasebla!hehe...but...SEBULAN....mcm sgt lama je...huu!malasnye...=P

bak kata doc titi:

"passing this posting is the 2nd thing, but the most important is to learn something"

so,let's see something in a positive way!insyaAllah...

wassalam...

do remember...

"..jika suatu saat fikiranmu diliputi kekalutan, atau hatimu dibayangi kesedihan, atau keluarga dan hartamu meninggalkanmu, maka jangan skali kali merasa putus asa kerana boleh jadi Allah telah mempersiapkan di sebalik itu kebaikan yg banyak bagimu.."

TAK selamat!

assalamuallaikum...

PELIK!x sangka lah...

yesterday, tgh2 busy buat keje, suddenly ijjato buzz me on ym...

ijjato: cube try bukak link nih...

me:baek!

ijjato: tgk betul2 kat firefox 3

cari punya cari, suddenly i realize, eh my fren's name n her password ade skali dlm that link yg mana beratus2 org lain lg ade dlm tu also together with their password...wah!ape ni kn...any website yg die masok through her computer with a name and passwrd sume ade...jobstreet, facebook, friendster, ym, email...aaa!sume!and when we tried to log in, mmg wujud plak tuh...

sy pon xpasti apekah itu sume...maklumla,buta computer sket!hehe...tp,perasan x, even with user name and PASSWORD, kalau dah computer, kalau dah ciptaan manusia, xde ape yg selamat n private!still remember how my facebook d 'hack' terok smp i decided to inactivate it for a long time...so,if dah tau xselamat, xperlu la letak mende2 private anda di dalam nye...melainkan saje nk buat gempak konon2 private,but nothing inside...also like me!haha...=PP

me: ijat!aku punya ade x???takotnye...

ijjato: aku dah tgk kn aritu, ko n aku pnya xde...

me: alhamdulillah...selamat2!hehe

ijjato: tp xtaula kot2 ada kat laman lain!hahaha

me: ah???

nasihat : rajen2la tuka password anda!(^_^)

lack of....MINYAK!

have u ever come across this problems??

tgh sedap2 drive sesorang,then suddenly u realize minyak kete dah nk abes!!lampu kat minyak tu menyala2 ntah sejak bila n perjalanan anda kes  stesen minyak > 20km!xpe2...abah ckp even kalau lampu menyala2,jauh lagi blh pegi...but,sejauh mane??n i'm not really sure sejak bile lampu tu dah berkelip...haiyooo

apekah tindakan sy??

tutup aircond,bukak tingkap!

tutup radio,menyanyi dlm hati...

bawak slow gile,hati tension tahap gaban!

trasa kete terhangguk2.....masyaAllah!
hati cuak...mane stesen minyak!
saba keteku syg...saba2...

xpe2,lepas ni isi minyak penuh!but suddenly u realize that...eh!aku baru je blanja 86 ringgit dr 100 td to buy something!so,just ade 14 ringgit dlm wallet!how pathetic...xpela....yg penting minyak!!!!!!

kalau kete brenti TENGAH2 jalan TENGAH2 jam kat TENGAH2 k.l ni mcm mane???no joke,i'm scared...no one is with me..

tp,Allah tu kan maha pelindung...alhamdulillah sempat sampai...hehe!
ya Allah...brsyukurnya!!=)

eh!baru tersedar.....xmakan lagi since pagi~~just minum slurpee je!adoiii...hee...jom pegi makan!hehe

(^_^)

itu saje!
take care...^^
wassalam...

beautiful heart......

an elderly woman, a beautiful woman, bed-ridden....can't respond at all when her name been called, been feed using feeding tube and wearing urinary catheter to pass urine for almost a year!

uncle:

i know her since we are form 6...we're in the same class that time...the 1st love still remains until now....i hope i can take care of her for the rest of my life...

i believe, if i were in her condition right now,she will do the same thing...

we enjoy every single thing we did before and when the difficult time comes, i still enjoy what i did for her even though she can't respond back but as long as i can lessen her burden, it's more than enough and i wont leave her...

i dont want to let her go, but as everything wasn't permanent, and i know she's suffer with the pain, i'll pray for her best...

hmm...actually, that uncle was my patient's husband, my home visit patient!the beautiful woman was a lung cancer patient which goes into metastasize phase to the brain and her spine...dont have to tell more bout her, u can imagine by yourself bout the severity of her deterioration

yes!the husband really take care of her...kalau x ckp pon dah tau! i dont really care about about those saying of "oh,my boyfriend do this to me,buy me this,always care for me" ...but to know and see those sacrifices of husband @ wife, it touches my heart! kan bagus kalau sume cmni...xdela kes2 cerai2 ni kn...^^

take care!wassalam