hidup dan menjadi dewasa

assalamuallaikum....

dah menjadi tua ni.....saya makin sedar tentang hakikat menjadi dewasa......

"being nice to someone you hate isnt called being two-faced. its called growing up." - taken from nana's status


stuju sangat kan.....ni lah hakikat hidup.....

i dont blame anyone for being bad to me...to stab me behind my back...because the maturity differs between person....

alhamdulillah...I praised to Allah for giving me such a lot of difficulties in life bcz it really teach me a lot of new stuff...

kita nak pikir buruk tentang orang pon xboleh sbb mungkin orang xtahu cerita sebenar....and people make assumptions....and maybe if we are in their place we might do the same thing....

it is possible to reveal the truth....but it is impossible to make everyone knows and understand about the truth...

so for me....just make your assumption....judge as what u want....and insyaAllah one day the truth will reveal....

i wish....my life gonna calm as always.....because the major thing in my life is all about ketenangan....


---thank you for another lesson, i did learn...:)

persuit of happYness

assalamuallaikum...

alhamdulillah life ia getting better day by day...thank you Allah..ketenangan...kegembiraan...:)

sometimes we do wonder what we want in life...for me...simple!

a good quality of life that bring me calm...thats all..

i used to think that money is everything...but when i start working i realize money is not even major thing in my life...

all i wanna have is calm...

and now i get it back...!!;) yayyy...

for certain ppl,they think about others too much..and ignore own feeling and needs...

and recently,my fren reminds me...

"kita dah besar...and we take charges of every single decision we made...we choose for ourselves...so,we dont have to think about others bcoz they did for themselves..they made the decision for their own satisfaction...what we need to do is to think and to fight for ourself and our needs..kerana dirimu begitu berharga"

hahha...tba2...;p

then it was silent in the car....and i realize it is so true....kita dah besar.....

now i am learning not to worry about others but to worry about myself...justttt myself...hihi

<3

thanked God for the happy life U provide me..alhamdulillah..

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because life is about making decision...

yes...life is full of choices...and to choose and make decision...

nak x nak...at d end of d day,we just have to choose one..becoz we cant have both...since we shud not be 'jualikan' hehe;p

i guess...just end d story and make it easier...for the decision to be made...:)

bak kata org...kita mudahkan idop org,Allah mudahkan hdup kita pula...;)

:)

sangat suke tgk org yg positive!!

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how i wish things went smooth...but still...

we just cant predict what will happen in the future...

and control what gonna happen in the past,now and as the time pass by

my life is really complicated..being complicated by myself

i wonder why does others have such an easy path in life and why cant i be in the same shoes...

where does the feeling goes..and when d other better half gonna come and the feeling gonna blossom like the feeling i had 6 years back...

how i wish i could be just a small teenange girl who doesnt have this kind of disturbing problems...

whatever it is...let just pray and hope for the best to everyone...

end of story...

:)

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assalamuallaikummm...

yes!!!dah abes tagging surgery..hihi...nicenyeeee rasa

for me...surgery is quite a nice posting except for d fact that rounds may reach up to 6 to 7 times a day...*to think it back...it is sone sort of wasting time for other beneficial things to do...

but whatever it is..i did enjoy for bowling games that day..hihihi...thanks to all mr basel grup members...walaupon asek ke longkang....but enjoy!!!!hihi

i manage to get chance to accompany pt to alor setar this week!excited gle okay.. sbb i love travel...so even pt is not stable...ok!sanggup ku harungi...hihi..alhamdulillah...along d way it smooth...smp je h.alor setar oxygen gas abes...nasibbbbbb xjadi tgh jalan...haha

spend hundreds for food in pekAn rabu...1st time pegii..hihi

ok!nak menikmati cuti post tagging...smbil tsenyum lebarrr...daaa

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still young...stay young...

Alhamdulillah..

Currently baby is 19days old..recently i gotta nephew...my d only 1 sis deliver her 1st baby that day...

I wish he is a girl...bcozzzz....baju baby girl sgt adorable okay!baju baby boy mcm yang itu yang itu ajelah...not much of variety..hehe

Now i understand how dfficult nak besarkan anak...nk kene bjaga malam...kasi susu...layan die nk main pkl 4 pagi masa mata mcm kene letak pemberat suruh tutup...nk salin pampers...nk denga die nanges kwaaaaa......it was like...ok!omg....hehe

It makes me appreaciate my mom more n more...thank you mak!hehe..i really hope i can handle my own child 1 day with lots of love,patience and care....just dont think i manage to have my own family and baby for d time being...aunty lala is still young n wanna enjoy her life as a single lady...lalala...hehe

For mohammad kamal ashraf...welcome to d club...luv you!;)

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crying...is a way of communication

assalamuallaikummm

yay esok cutiiiii

so what is my task tonite??

baby!!!!

kene amik turn plak jaga baby bucuk macam ni...pity my mom who need to wake up at nite when d baby start to uwaaaaa.....

so,y do we feel annoyed when baby cry??

dont we realize that,that's d only way of communication they ever have...sakit nanges...lapa nanges....nk soh salin pampers nanges...panas nanges...sejuk pon nanges...

mybe because i work with babies before...so i used to hear d crying sound smpai jd mangli org penang kata...haha

but i guess we shud be more aware bout their needs rather than nagging and lost control~

anak itu anugerah Allah yang paling berharga...

i love children!cause they r adorable and smells good.....hehe...

love u baby!and plis be good to aunty lala ok...;p

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as it almost over...

assalamuallaikum...

alhamdulillah...my medical posting is almost over......in less than 24hrs time...lalalala...hihi

menjelang akhir posting ni...ntah kejonahan apekah yg melanda diriiku!!it is a daily jonah!

i'd been incharging acute cubicle for d past 1 week...and everyday.....everyday ade pt kene intubate...ventilated...on inotropes...BP sky high...active bleeding...tell me!!tell me!!!mcm2 ada...hehe

penat...sangat2 kot!but oklah...menjelang abes posting ni lah kejonahan jadi...nsb x awal2...hehe

tringat puntaky penah ckp...

"ala rosila...ko masok medical blambak mayat ko jmpa..smbil jalan ada patient sawan sbelah ko...ada pt collapse blkang ko...biasa wehhh"

and mmg btl...when my 1st pt meninggal masa medical i feel so bad......but since there's a lot of death...rasa mcm ok,it's another dead body i cant save...provided i'd been done maximum management and active resuscitation on him...

tringat masa o&g...my mo n specialist used to said that "men creat a lot of probs and they r d real culprit'

and now....i agree!haha...sbb keje kat wad lelaki i realized that most of the disorder r preventable...but smoking,obesity,non compliance to medication and all high risk behavior leads them to those preventable disease!and much worse...sometimes they did spread it to their spouse and loved ones....which is women!hehe

so girls!think thousand times before u commit....to a big responsibilities!;) hihi

ok gotta sleep!!my last day is coming soon...yay!!!:)

bye~

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cause it is a sad death

today....we had a sad death masa nak abessss masa keje

a new patient...came in with a respiratory distress and died after abt 2 hours in ward...

ape yg sedihnya....

patient meninggal di hari kahwin anak die...

and the reaction of d son was like....soooo sad...

"doc...btl ke ayah sy da xde???"

it's hard to tell...yes ur father already passed away when the cardiac monitor still ade pulse...but actually patient dah xdeeee.....

haih!

when i'm in medical death is like so biasa...but kematian arini mcm sedih!dahla da nak abes medical...sob3....

ok!nak jadi doc kene kuat...i'm glad i did contribute...thanks to kawan2 yang bantu td...

moga pakcik dtempatkan di tempat org yang beriman...ameennn

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because i'm happy...>_<

assalamuallaikum...

enjoy myself today...yay!!!hihi

first of all...sy da keje dgn my fav team balik!in which izzati is around...yayyyyy....

then go to o&g and meet my senior's baby...dont know that pantang org tua2 that we cant take pic of a newborn baby...ok!since our org tua got a lot of pantang larang...just accept it and....ok!just accept!hihi...d baby is sooo chomelll....

and baru prasan all babies shares d same smell....which is smell of 'wangiiiiiiii'...suke!;)

ok!from now on i'm gonna lead my life to a happy life...be positive!:)

thanks to izzati for d great food tonite...:)

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cause i'm not born to be a fighter...

okay!now i realize...who's me...

i am not a fighter...n i'm not born to be a fighter...

y am i say so?

sebab i wont take anyone's belonging...since i'm small...u can just take what i have...and just leave me for good...

and when i grew up...it doesnt change...

it hurts when u really want something...but u just cant have it because u cant!n u r not a fighter...

and that's me..:)

xpe...there'll b a day...that i dont have to be a fighter and get what i love...what i want...and what i need to have...

chaiyok lala!!!!

okay!i miss boboy...:'(

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cause it is too late

salam...

yes!!finally i guess i can start writing back...

maklumla da keje mmg xsempat open lappy...tp jmpa plak application for blog dlm phone!

ok...where shud i start.....

hehe..

alhamdulillah medical is finishing soon...gonna enter a new posting...surgeryyyy....yay!hihi

it's true that medical is super busy!even sometimes i dont even have time to go to d toilet...hehe

gonna miss medical...d boss.....all r really.nice!hihi...but wont miss d workload...plisss...hehe

many new things happen...still didnt meet my other better half...life is complicated!really....seriously....hehe

and sometimes when u dont even think something gonna happen...it happens...and u r not sure what shud u do dealing with those kind of situation....

so!what shud u do....observe...pray....and think!before u act....:)

i hope i wont hurt anybody...i'm sorry if i did...

jom!lets have a good life ahead...:)

ditemani dgn great food around!hihi

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