que sera sera

seriously!

2011-10-09T11:25:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

realiti bekerja adalah bbeza dari blajar...

we started to meet all those kind of people...and sometimes.....u feel it's difficult to work with certain type of people who cannot work as a team...seriously!

only now i understand ape yg pernah dr faizal mengadu pd saya dlu....on how difficult the working life is and even difficult to deal with certain people!seriously....

for me, the basic of team work is to give and take....and helping each other....perkara yang kecil dan boleh diselesaikan x perlu dbesar2kan....and finally,at the end of the day...saya,anda dan patient gembira~:)

kesabaran adakalanya sangat diuji dan dituntut dlm bekerja...semoga saya beroleh kesabaran yg tinggi to deal with these kind of people...ameen~

buzzling sound......over my head...

2011-10-08T03:10:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

i'm busy today...need to do census, OT list and 'on call' tonight...but instead of typing my work, my head is buzzling around a death occurred today....

kematian yg betul2 beri keinsafan dan pengajaran pd saya..

i still remember a busy day about 3 weeks ago when i'm in high risk ward....i clerk 2 patient and both case makes a ring for me today...

1st case:
a 27y.o woman with twin pregnancy came in for BP stabilization which her BP that day was just 140/90..a cutting point for PIH (pregnancy induced hypertension)...i wonder myself...why my MO in clinic wanna refer this patient for ward admission with this kind of BP...dan pd hari tu katil full as byk admission...i clerk this patient and she is a really2 nice woman...i adore her humble face....until today...we have a good chat and i build a good rapport with her and her family...she was damn fine in the ward with good BP control

2nd case:
a 42y.o woman referred from hosptl taiping,,,having recurrent breast cancer with brain metastasize...she was so depress and dont wanna talk to anybody...she just sleep and dont wanna open her eyes when i 1st saw her until i thought she was fainting or having hypoglycaemic attack...all history of the patient i got from the husband...who is a roti canai maker...and lost his job since his wife affected from the cancer..

and 1 fine day when i'm on call....my cancer patient's GCS drop and had symptoms of increase ICP...i prepare patient for emergency c-sec and booking ventilator for the baby...i tried my best not to cause another pain to the patients and family...alhamdulillah....for what i know when i meet the husband,she still alive eventhough she's in ICU now...

and today...when i reach hosptl in the morning...everybody were so kecoh about an emergency case...twin delivery which the 1st baby delivered at home and her second baby was delivered in A&E...she was having high BP which need hydralazine and MgS04 infusion and had massive bleeding until her Hb went down to 4...she develop sudden SOB and 9 pint of blood was transfused and she was sent to OT for hysterectomy to remove her uterus to stop the bleeding...i wasnt know....that it was my patient after i found out she's already died after 30 min of CPR......

what i regret is.....i did gave her hope when i saw her in ward....that she'll be alrite,when she was worried on her condition......i never expect anything bad gonna happen for her and the twins...who am i for saying 'dont worry.everything gonna b fine"...seperti da sure nothing gonna happen...and she believed me and gave me a relief smile...dengan izin Allah........the good outcome gonna happen....and dengan izin Allah....the bad thing can happen at sudden....i forgot and i remind myself today.....i wont give any hope to anybody for anything...cause i dont wanna hurt anyone anymore...:(

things happen tanpa disangka...sapa sangka pesakit yg ok,stabil finally temui ajalnya harini...and pesakit yg xstabil.....dengan peluang hidup yg kurang....masih bnafas hingga saat ni....Allah yg menentukan segalanya...Allah maha besar...allahuakbar...

i'm sorry for those who hurts because of me....because of my hope...because of my stupidity....because of my carelessness and because of my ignorance....:(
i'm sorry....:'(

in the middle.....of the crowd...

2011-09-21T05:20:00.000-07:00

it's hard for us to be in the middle....

and now i'm stuck in the middle....

and at the end of the day....u'r the one who's not get anything...

cause u'r not given the chance to choose....for yourself...

i'm tired to satisfy others....at all the time....

and no one bother on how i feel...

*depression*

because i'm so stress....

2011-07-29T06:21:00.000-07:00

had u ever felt like so tired and stress till u can't think straight and lost ur patience......?

keje ni mmg menguji...my almost 2 weeks experience working as a doctor is terrible...ntah knpa rs mcm xblh nak cope with working condition...my eyes cried most of the day...my heart scream every single hours....my only medicine there are just my patients and their babies...seriously!

i told my mom...sometimes i feel like burst out, but when i see my patient's face, the only thing that cross my mind is, i NEED TO HELP THEM as they really deserve to be treated wisely get the best treatment...

pagi2 need to wake up at 5.30 am and reach hospital by 6.30am and start my routine reviewing the patients...i'm so damn sleepy as always need to go back late most of the days...1.00 am adelah biasa...for taggers like me...hehe!but even mengantok n penat tahap gabaiii, jumpa je patient trs ilang mngantok...but bile jmpa bos, asek rs sakit perut je......:P

when u'r too tired and stress, the only thing u hope from org skeliling adelah utk memahami....dan mberi semangat....but sometimes it does turns around...it's just nobody's fault.....this is what we call takdir...janji ALLAH tu yg tbaik kn? :) just dont go near to a bomb that gonna explode like BOOM!!!:P hehe..

i'm pigeon type....u just need to talk to me nicely and i'll treat u so good that u'll never imagine...because i'm a pigeon type...:P

and now i need to sleep....thanked God my bed still love me like before even we hardly see each other these days...hihi

goodluck everybody...^_^

2011-07-02T01:02:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

semalam abah masok ward...as he's having pyrexia of unknown origin...(demam lebih dr 2 mggu yang tidak diketahui penyebabnye)...bila buat test sume normal...1st time kot ahli kluarga masok hospital...hehe~alhamdulillah he's getting better...

agak cuak sbenonye~xsampai 2 mggu da nak masok keje...but sriusly mcm blank gile...mungkin sbb lama sgt cuti...makan,tido,makan,tido...it's time for u to burn out your fat lala!!ngahaha(gelak puas hati)...jaga kau lemak...:P

good bye fat!!!!!!

i really feel uneasy if any medical person knows me as a doctor...but maybe as we use the same language, we easily recognize each other...and yesterday, one of the best specialist here,datuk dr soju (i guess this is how her name shud be spelled) throws some medical question to my 'berkarat' brain...OMG, belum pape lg dah kene treat as HO...'ok rosila, i really welcome u to join us, see u soon'

hik3....cuak nak matiiiii....lala,kau dah nak keje laaa....be serious ok!^_^ wink2!!really need to prepare mentally and physically...tp white coat xbeli lg!!:P

to me and frens, GUDLUCK~^^

i need those 'drugs'...plez!:)

2011-06-23T03:44:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

finally there's some fresh air from outside the world of house!:P hehe

can frens considered as family....too?? yes!definitely...for me!hehe...sy dari form 1 duduk asrama, so most of my time filled with dearest frens around...thanks to ALLAH who provide me with good people around to share my ups and downs...

today i had a nice meeting up with matriculation frens...wani n anis!!OH MY GOODNESS! masing2 dah berubah especially cikgu wani...sgt cikgu!hehe...it reminds me to the child look of us for the past 6 years...berhingus!:P (hyperbola sket...hee)

some of my frens dah nak kawin, bertunang...sgt gembira....!!!!maybe for some ppl yg still rileks n xpiki psl kawin ni sbb x smpai seru lg @ belum smpai masa lg...i still rs nk berjalan2 tgk dunia....meeting up with nice ppl and make frens with everybody...^_^

when u travel alone,u'll realize so many things around during your journey...that's why, sometimes when i want to think more than usual, i like to be alone and look around me...the scenery, the people, all the things that brings the colours of life...^_^

mcm arini, sy pegi solat kt 1 surau ni....and the smell of the telekung........penah denga 'dejavu' x??which is any situation @ smell that makes u remember any event before...so,the smell of telekung tu mcm bau sabun sy penah pakai kt matrik dlu...hehe!mmg rasa mcm nak bauuuuuuuu sampai kalau bole nak kembali ke masa lalu...bole x mcm tu???:P

and kdg2 i'm hallucinating some person kt tepi jalan like my own fren......this symptom brings a disorder which i call rindu yg teramat sgt!!!I MISS U frens,which are all ubat plg berharga didunia....:)

LOVE u,

lala..:)

sad=sedih=gloomy....:(

2011-06-20T01:29:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum....

sy sedih hari ni...

diam lebih baik...

whenever i feel sad and lonely, i'll go to a big shopping store...bukan mcm klcc @ pavillion ye...kalau yg tu,buat lg tension je sbb mmg xle nak beli pape...xmampu...hehe!

it's like GIANT ke, TESCO ke...MYDIN ke...hehe!and i feel much2 better...just for a slow walk and mencuci mata pd barangan2 comel makes me feel sooooo goooooooooood!!

like now....i feel so much better...alhamdulillah...:)

okai!bubuy!!(^__^)

the wedding...:)

2011-06-01T01:33:00.000-07:00

alhamdulillah....:)

assalamuallaikum...happy n sgt lega kenduri da habis, alhamdulillah semua slamat n baik2 aje...skrg,shida dah jadi milik abg azreen...so, nak x nak kene control jgkla kn...dah ade abg ipar ni,kdg2 tlupa jgk...slumber je masok bilik xketuk...hehe!

mcm majlis org lain jgk...few days before the event ade majlis khatam al quran...majlis kecik je,tp bmakna sbb tokwan yang jadi 'ketua' majlis...:)


baca2 blh nak tgelak pulak...hehe :P

and tanggal 28/5 which was on abah's birthday, shida nikah...sbb sibuk sgt for preparation aritu, lupa btday abah...hehe~majlis kami kecik aje,tp alhamdulillah meriah dgn sedara mara n kwn2 abah...

so,here it goes...some small parts of the event...:) thank you ALLAH for making it smooth...alhamdulillah...

banner kawen shida...hehe

pilih2...mana bkenan~haha...;p

gudbye to a single life...now it turns two!:P

abah buat surprise nikahkan shida...di hari jadi abah...

raja kappor~haha...

ngan cousin tsayang...yana..

bila yang tua try posing candid!haha...

the 3 stooges...:P


on the wedding day...not much picture from our camera...

menghargai...

2011-05-17T05:58:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

ok fine, now boboy tgh mrajok gile2 ngan sy sbb tpijak die dlm gelap...ati bunge jugak kucing aku ni...adoyaiii...hehe

xpela, sementara tggu kekasih ati tu sejuk, tulis blog jap!:P

barang2 kawin shida mostly sume dah sampai...rasanya dah bole jd wedding planner sbb byk jgk involve in d wedding ceremony itself and d preparation~fuhh...penattt...sriusly!xpela, kita tgk hasilnya masa kenduri nnt ye...hee~

tgh2 kemas bilik pengantin td...dok sapu2 bilik, tersapu duit seposen...tringat masa kecik2 dlu...abah mmg marah kalau buang @ xkutip duit...even 1 sen pon mmg bising...

me: ala abah...1 sen je...bukan bole beli apa2pon

abah: ambik skrg!1 sen ke, brapa pon tetap rezeki n berharga...

tiba2 tringat...betapa penting utk menghargai apa pon yg kita ada xkisah la besar @ kecik nilainya...bila kenduri ni mmg bertambah2 sedar yg duit ni 'mengalir mcm air'...LAJU!!!!nilai duit tu sendiri sgt kecik...sbb harga barang pon makin meningkat...gaji naik,harga barang pon naik...hehe~kesian abah n mak...

sy bsyukur abah ajar kami adik bradik utk hargai duit walau 1 sen...so that kita lebih mhargai setiap apa yg kita belanjakan...even....ok fine!kdg2 mbazir jugak shopping sane sini...hehe...:P

i hope 1 day, anak2 sy pon dpt ajaran yg sama....supaya mghargai apa yg kita ada...xkirala duit, harta, atau sesama manusia...insyaALLAH...:)

"kalau xcukup 1 sen, 9999999.99 tetap x dipanggil 1000000...sejuta!" :) kan!kan!

finally, dr. lala...:)

2011-04-30T04:06:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

alhamdulillah,alhamdulillah,alhamdulillah....dgn izin ALLAH sy da jadi dokter...hehehe

sujud syukur....masjid besi 29/4/2011

i'm now DR.

hehe....:P

mmg masa nak umum result tu antara detik plg mendebarkan n plg indah dlm idup ni kot spnjg 24 taun idop ni...dgn cuak nye, tketar2 nye...alhamdulillah ALLAH permudahkan lepas 5 taun menimba ilmu...hehe~

i should thanked my parents sbb keep on praying 4 me...tringat dlu2 dari zaman skola, kalau sy nak exam je abah akan amik cuti sbb d whole exam hours tu abah akan keep on baca yassin...especially during my miserable pre clinical years...abah n mak sama2 cuak mcm diorg nak amik exam jugak...hehe~even skrg abah da bz, but still spend d morning b4 went to office utk solat hajat n baca yassin for me...tharuuuu....:'( when umum je result, tros nak bgtau mak n abah n rs nak peluk diorg...!!!*arini da nak jumpa mak n abah...yeayyy!!!*

to all the lecturers, mmg sgt thutang budi dgn tunjuk ajar...saba je layan krenah student2 yang keep doing d same mistake again n again...hehe! to the patient whose kindly share their story to make us learn bout d disorder and kindly allow their body to be checked by medical students like us...i always wonder, if i'm d patient i wont simply allow anyone to touch my body...so, for those who willing to do it so, THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!

to dr. faizal ( not prof faizal @ mr paisal ye..hehe), tenkiuuu sbb sgt byk bantu...hehe~

i'll b missing my frens and the memories a lot!!!

4 budak nakal...hehe

the clinical exam and question...:)

2011-04-28T05:52:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum....

alhamdulillah, both theory and clinical exam for pro III da pon abes...mmg lama kot x menjunguk blog ni...sbb sibuk gile2...cewah!hehe...

alhmadulillah clinical exam td dpermudahkan Allah...stakat yg termampu, sy da cuba buat yg tbaik...apepon tetap cuuuuakkk menunggu esok...samada ada rezeki nak dpt title doc @ kene menunggu bbrapa bulan lg kalau xdiiizinkan ALLAH...


my face during clinical exam td...senyum dlm gloomy...hehe

so, this is my case and the question that had been asked...kalau2 my junior @ my frens yg belum lg clinical exam tu blh la tgk2...:)

long case:
examiner: prof miah, dr Rusydan and 1 external lecturer from UKM---x igt nama

case:
uncle C,60 years old known to have DM,HTN and hypercholestrolemia for 10 years comes with sudden RHC pain for 2 days associated with fever, rigors, lethargy and loss of weight and on d day of admission, he had severe pan and symptoms of shock where he had generalized abdominal pain and SOB that relieve by oxygen therapy...on u/s scan, there's few stones noted in the bile duct. so, i did rule out for the complications of acute cholecystitis bla3 and also rule out the liver pathology such as liver abcess, hepatitis bla3...
on examination, pt is not jaundice, not pale and not in respiratory distress. abdomen is soft and non tender, no murphy sign, no hepatomegaly bla3....(basically sume normal)

so, my working diagnosis acute cholecystitis, liver abcess, hepatitis, acute pancreatitis and might be perforated peptic ulcer disease...

question:
1. causes of peritonitis
2. sign of liver abcess and perforated peptic ulcer
3. what basically u want to see in the gall bladder in u/s scan
4. regarding ERCP procedure (byk question tp yg igt just 2)

what u want to exclude before do ERCP
other than allergy, what can the dye cause to the patient

5. what investigation specifically will u order to suspect perforated peptic ulcer
6. what type of antibiotic u will choose in patient with acute cholecystitis
7. what organism can be found in the gall bladder
8. 3rd generation cephalosporin cover what organism
9. the most common cause for liver abcess in malaysia
10. what type of antibiotic u will choose for ameobic infection
11. symptoms of hyperglycaemia and hypoglycaemia
12. what is HbA1C?
13. if patient FBS is 4.7, is it normal? and if HbA1c is 13% what do u think?
14. how to consult on foot care of diabetic patient
15. just treat me as Uncle C, so plez consult me regarding my DM and HTN upon discharge

ok...tq...:)

short case
examiner: prof norashikin, dr rohani and prof wan ariffin(UM)

1st: gynae case
all i can say is a vague ovarian mass. discussion:

differential diagnosis
management of endometriosis
confirmative test for endometriosis
how would u like to consult a single nulliparous lady with endometriosis

2nd case: medical case
i'd seen this patient before...hehehe!most probably a right sided pleural effusion

investigation that u would like to order
if pleural effusion, what do u want to see on chest x-ray...
kringggg....time up!

3rd case: paediatric case
6 months old down syndrome baby

what do u notice bout this patient on inspection (basically sign of down syndrome)
what is hypertelorism
what are the complications of down syndrome

ok, plez auscultate the heart-----> it's VSD

is VSD common in down syndrome
confirmative test for VSD
management of VSD
criteria of surgery in VSD
complications of VSD
if patient come with VSD and cyanosis, what runs tru your mind---essenmengger!!*mcm slh eja..hehe*
pathophysio of VSD

fuhhh...habis...

during my paeds examination, ramai btl doc2 stand by the side of the bed nak denga jawapan...and disebabkan restless dgn soalan yang byk and brain fatigue......byk jgk mengeluarkan jawapan sengal...that's all i can say....sorry doc.....hehe

moga2 esok dpermudahkan sume...moga semua dpt lulus PRO III ni...ameennnn....:)

engagement...

2011-02-10T04:41:00.000-08:00

assalamuallaikum...

nak cite je...
jumaat lepas, maka berlansung la majlis ptunangan shida + abg azren...hehe


hantaran pihak prempuan...jadi banyak sbb ramai pulak yg menyumbangkan hantaran...trima kasih...:)

majlis alhamdulillah meriah n bjalan lancar...utk ptama kalinya family sbelah mak n abah bkumpul n bkerjasama utk majlis ni...maklumla,majlis ptama dua2 belah pihak...cucu tua ler katekan..hehe!

budak2 nak buat ape lg...org sibuk wat keje,diorang tgk tv jela...hehe

i'm glad that i can be a part of the event...i can contribute something for my sister...smpai sakit 1 badan punye penat...but ia berbaloi2...:)

i love her with all my heart...thinking she'll be far away from me...makes my heart cry...but thinking of her heart will filled with happiness, my heart smile...:)

da 'tua' ni biasala...setiap sedara mara yg dtg, "ha,lala pulak bila??"...kawan2 abah n mak pulak bbisik2 masa sy jalan..."yang doctor tu blom lagi,xtaula da ade ke belom...bla3"....nasebla still blaja...ade gak alasan...haih!hehe...kesian bila da tua ni kn...hehe!:P


hah!ni la die tunang sy...adik sndiri...hehe!:P any other person that can makes u feel happy other than ur own family members?


some of rombongan pihak lelaki...:)

geng shida zaman kecik...abg k~sibuk amik gamba shida...she's beautiful kn!:)


i love him!

mak,acu,lala,paklong,alang,bang k,mak tok,tok wan...:)

m.i.e.o.w...

2011-01-18T07:26:00.000-08:00

assalamuallaikum...

bosan pulak bile da abes exam...xtau nak watpe~(padahal bole je nk baca buku kn...PEMALAS!hehe)

ok2...sambung baca esok la eh~hehe...:P

tengah kebosanan ni...tringat kat boboy n gegurl~kan best kalau leh main ngan diorang!!hehe...


introducing...gegurl n boboy~buah hati baru semua kat rumah:)

adik baru habis spm...so adik saya telah membuat keputusan utk membela kucing!!so,here they are...our sweetest notty kittens in the house...gegurl n boboy...

betulla,org cakap, baby ni, die buat ape pon nampak manis n comel~mak yg mmg xsuke kucing pon da mcm dapat anak sndiri je...pagi2 bangun,dengala mak 'cot cet,cot cet'--menyembang ngan gegurl n boboy..hihi

gegurl ni dahla gemok!slumber je suke tdo atas boboy...hehe


mcm baby kn!dah la gemok...pantang je org nak main dengan die,excited!


boboy baik sgt---even kucing jantan...sllu mengalah ngan gegurl


tp kasih syg same rata je...dokong dua2!mcm biasa,gegurl xle dok diam...nakal!


mmg pantang org nak amik gamba...posing mcm model!hehe...tomey kn boboy n gegurl..:)

mak xpernah hantar mms...xreti katanya...tp for the 1st time...siap anta mmg...."lala!comel x gegurl n boboy pakai rantai loceng??" hehehe~comel je mak ni pon...skrg boboy n gegurl da ade loceng...hehe!kling3...:D

rindu kucing...rindu mak...rindu abah...rindu nani...rindu shida....RINDU!!!!nak balik...tp xsettle forensic lg...sedih~sob3...

okay!mieow3....:)

happiness...:)

2011-01-12T08:50:00.000-08:00

assalamuallaikum...

tgh buat book review psl stroke...'a stroke of hope, a new beginning'...tiba2 trasa nak update blog pule...:)

ok!

happy birthday to me...happy birthday to me..♪♫♪♫

thanks for all birthday wishes...xkisah la dr fb ke, sms ke, call ke, video call ke, dari hati ke...hehe!toche3...~:D

alhamdulillah...masih bernafas lagi kn!syukur pada ALLAH...:)

dapatla makan kek secret recipe masa bithday...hehe

seperti dijanjikan mak...tadaaaa!!!!!xde adiah taun ni sbb lala da besa....kui3~just makan2 family je...tp mmg xrasa pape....mybe betul ckp mak...sbb lala dah besa~hehe...birthday ni sbenarnye just utk memperingati "oh!!no umo aku dah bertambah la!" :D tp nanti da kawen,even da tua bangka pon nak demand adiah dr husband boleh??kakakaka....:P

bukan nak banyak pon...satu cukup la...:PP

taun lepas, celeb btday dgn shida dgn meriah nye...taun ni pon dgn shida...tp dengan kalut n tensionnye...hehehe~mmg sibuk....mggu lepas jela masa yg dpt balik before the real event...majlis ptunangan shida n abg azren!:) so,sy selaku driver terhormat, berpusing2 sluruh ipoh cari butik pengantin , cari barang hantaran, hiasan2...ssh jugak kn nak tunang!tunang je kot????berfeluh2 jugela...tp bile tgk baju pengantin......hati bbunga riang!!!teros xpenat!hehe

tantek kn??kan??:)

memang happy sangat2....maklumla,ni majlis pertama kat umah saya...mak abah sibuk buat psiapan...buat langsir baru, tuka karpet baru, nak beli katil baru....sume baru lah!maklumla,bsiap utk majlis kahwin skali...:) mak almost everyday will call me to tell the progression!suke sgt....:) moga bjalan lancar semuanya...

marilah same2 mendoakan yg tbaik utk kembar xsama tahun saya,shida and abg ipar to be, abg azren...:D
of course, rs sedih sbb da xle lepak sama2 mcm dlu once she's married, but xpela...I'M TOO HAPPY FOR HER!!!!!:D

goodbye....hello....:)

2010-12-30T18:35:00.000-08:00

assalamuallaikum...

tinggal bbrapa jam je lagi 2010 akan brakhir....:D

betapa cepatnya masa bjalan dan bumi bputar...dan kita makin hampir pada hari kiamat....takotnye~:(

most of people will have 'azam tahun baru'...apa azam tahun baru kita eh~ sjujurnya sy xpenah terfikir utk berazam setiap kali tahun baru....azam spttnya datang setiap hari utk hari esoknya...."hari esok aku ingin jadi yang lebih baik dr hari ini" sbb manusia mudah lupa....dan kita mesti mperbaiki diri kita setiap hari!!:D

so,smoga kita berjaya menjadi seorang yg lebih baik + lebih bahagia pada hari esok....lebih dari hari ini....ameen~ SENYUM SLALU!!!

i would say that 2010 is a busy year for me~i start running instead of walking...i start to explore a new pathway, a new beginning for a new life....hoping that it's a better life for me...alhamdulillah...it runs smoothly...thanks ALLAH.....:)

alhamdulillah sy mndapat berita gembira dr bestfren forever sy smlm...she's got a job!!!!as a lecturer in UITM dungun....dpt je sms tu,rs cm nk mlompat hepi,tp xkan la pulak....depan org kot!hehe...3 years of friendship, but full of improvement!!!alhamdulillah...setiap yg tjadi mmg PASTI ada hikmahnya....:D

slamat datang 2011...slamat tinggal 2010....:D

bulan 4 ni da nak profesional 3-------->sile blaja rajen2 lala!!!!

a case

2010-12-10T03:53:00.001-08:00

assalamuallaikum...

i should be busy studying for my just next week paed's exam...*plez pray for me..hehe* but i just wanna share a story bout a case i saw few days back dat touch my feeling today....

luckily. i'm not as busy as previous weeks for this week as our group had cover on most of the class...so,fortunately, sy bpeluang on call yg benor2 on call...hehehe~together with man, my grup leader...so, as kene join ward round n so on....km terjumpa sorang budak india, bout 9 years old...come with squint (juling) and facial asyymettry ( muka senget sbelah)...dan,berjalan xstabil...asek nak jatuh2...

the doctors and us were there with the patient bout sejam gakla, asking history, do examinations...adalah agak pelik presentation mcm ni kat kanak2...dan si ibu menunggu slama sminggu b4 bawak anak ke hospital...thinking that it's just a small problems...related to refractive error...dan bawa anaknye ke kedai cermin mata....

doctor did order for emergency CT scan for this child and found out she had some kind of lesion di kawasan otak nye (lebih specific utk yg memehami,di brainstem n cerebellum)...it's most likely a malignant tumor...cancer...

investigations had still been carried out to rule out the cause...tapi, bak kata doc saya, mungkin adek ni mengidap medulloblastoma...iaitu cancer yg rendah tahap survival nye...i was touch by my doc's word as me n man who r d student yg mula2 saw this kid...and she was really nice, innocent and naive...

rasa sedih if it's true...her mother plak is just 23...sbaye plak tuh ngan sy (but da ade anak...hehe)....how to cope with the lost one day??only God knows...

i'd stressed it so many times...if ur child had some symptoms, or just having fever, go and get medical treatment as early as possible...u never know what'll happen for just a simple symptoms....

bye!

intruders....

2010-12-03T01:20:00.000-08:00

assalamuallaikum....

mmg da lama sgt2 xmenulis pape...i myself couldnt remember when was my last time typing something on this blog...gile2 busy skrg smpai kdg2 rs mcm nak pengsan...my days were full of activities,classes and occupied with patients,patients and patients....

currently, tgh posting paeds...senior paeds...5 weeks to cover all things together in paeds...life is quite hectic anyway...fuhh!hee~i'm not gonna talk on my posting...nothing much, nothing new...it's just facing new faces, new kids, new babies and new group members....it should b be alright anyway...:D

beberapa hari lepas...pkul 4 pagi, hazim call me...mcm pelik sbb sllunya kes emergency je org nak cal pagi2 buta ni...

"ape ko da tulis kat facebook ko hah??"

"pkul brapa ko tdo?"

"ko off x facebook ko smlm"

and blaa3....bertubi2 soalan....

sgt terkejut bila buka facebook and my shout was terrible!saya telah di HACK by someone semasa sy sedang tdo...dan status itu sunggoh terrible dan memalukan...sampai nk sebut pon sy malu....i was wondering...xde sape tau my password and obviously i wont use a simple password for something personal like facebook....and masih!sy dapat di hack...

i'm sure, ramai lg yg pernah dihack...and i was also wondering....why does people need to hack other's privacy life??need to intrudes other's life??and d best answer i could think off mungkin sbb da xde kerje sgt kot....

many suggestion had be given to me...change d password, deactivate fb, change emails, change email's password...yeah!i should try one by one...:) and maybe anda di luar sana jugak boleh rajin2 menukar password...so that ur life will b less likely to be intruded...hehe:)

moral of the story would be...

hormatilah hidup org lain....
tukala password anda selalu
jagalah diri anda as things like fb and emails is not privacy anymore...
carilah kerja yg bfaedah....:)

have a nice day!!!

always the BEST...

2010-09-29T14:29:00.000-07:00

i believe that ALLAH gave me the best

and anything that happen n could happen to me is the best

semoga kita sentiasa REDHA dengan pemberianNYA

dan jangan berputus asa dengan dugaan ALLAH...

pray 4 d best...insyaALLAH...:)

ingatlah orang tersayang...:)

2010-08-31T04:53:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

salam merdeka, salam 1 Malaysia n salam ramadhan...:)

pejam celik,pejam celik, minggu depan da nak raye~cepatnya........taun ni, bbeza sket sbb i need to drive from k.l to kedah alone sbb jadual waktu xmengizinkan balik dgn family...sob3~

jalan mesti jam gila punya nak balik utara ni!

dpt bygkan, mmg akan berenti kat mrata2 r&r sbb nak tido ngantok!hehe...xpela,biala masalah tu...just nak bcerita sket ttg pemandu2 jalan raya ni...

penah sy balik dr ipoh-k.l pukul 4.30 pagi...dtemani,cik rohany~^^ gelap gelita sgt jalan!dtambah dgn mengantok lg...and sy perasan, most of pemandu motosikal xpasang lampu!WHAT???pelik gile kot...dahla bawak slow melelong2, xpasang lampu, pakai baju wane itam pulak...do u expect other drivers will see u???bahaya betul...

mggu lepas,skali lagi...xpasang lampu moto...kat jalan tgh2 k.l n menyelit sane sni...kenapakah manusia meletakkan nyawanya ditahap yg sgt murah??

gambar hiasan

bile hujan lebat.....most of the drivers, including me, will have masalah penglihatan...yela, side mirror penuh titik2 air hujan...(i wonder,kenapa xde wiper utk side mirror jugak eh???hehe) so, ade ssetengah kereta, kedekot sgt nak pasang lampu kereta....DO U EXPECT sume orang ada mata yg terang seperti anda??

haa....kabur kan jadinye?

sometimes, bkn sbb laju je orang akan accident...tp, sbb masalah2 kecil macam ni...kita ambil lewa...kurangnya kepekaan kita boleh mbahayakan nyawa org lain...

pandulah berhati2...ingatlah orang yg tsayang...^^

ragam manusia...

2010-08-26T08:34:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum....

hari ni mcm berbaloi baloi pegi ward...byk dapat tgk procedure n sign for logbook...:D:D:D

ni surgery utk buang cancer di usus seorang pakcik

alhamdulillah da masok posting baru lagi....surgery!penat...but maklumla,azam baru ni,kenela rajen sket...hehe~

arini, ntah nape, sy asek terjumpa dgn manusia2 yang agak saba ajela...

mula2, pegi bazar...mcm biasala,orang bujang, bile time nk beli makanan je,da xde idea da...sbb ari2 makan luar...*rindunya masakan mak* so, i decided to buy ROTI JOHN!hehe...rupe roti john kat kedai pakcik ni, mak aih!mmg membuka slera...tp bila die prepare roti tu...tgk2, roti dgn selapis nipis telur je...ckp roti john ayam~pakcik tu jawab, da ade da ayam dlm ni...tp,sy tgk just telur!!!NIPIS GILE....xpela pakcik,brapa?3 ringgit je...*sama je harga kedai lain...*---------bila berbuka,mmg smata2 telur...haih~xpela pakcik...mybe die xcukup modal kot~

lepas on call, singgah jap kat jalan TAR sbb nak cari butang baju mlayu utk adik...maklumla,dak2 muda ni nak yg unik2...naik pening nak cari...so,cari punye cari parking,last2 dapat...parking legal ok!tp,ade ulat2 parking ni mintak smpai 10 hinggit!he'eh...lebih2 plak...amik kesempatan!kalau tanah die xpe gak...tanah kerajaan!dah tu,cm gangster...maklumla,sbb pompuan, bg jela...wlopon dlm ati GERAM GILE!!!aaaaa~~~

tgh2 pilih butang baju mlayu ni....tba2 jari kaki rasa panas2 je...patu pedih...patu sakit!!!tgk2,ade org baling rokok yg still mnyala kat kaki sy~~~aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~~~~~~~!!!!!geram gile!!!!xbersopan n xberhemah betol!mmgla xluka,dah ade cover...but,GERAM kot...dah isap,xreti buang ke abg???

or at least xreti2 nak padamkan api nye dlu???

tapi paling SYOK tu kn,hehehhehehe....masa nak balik g kat kete,nampak si ulat parking ni kene marah2 ngan penguatkuasa DBKL...ececece!skema plak...hehe!haa...muka mengulat2 takot...sy ape lg...dengan kegeraman tu,slumber je pegi dekat diorang...

"abang, nak duit!td awak mintak sy 10rgt kn??"

hahahahhaa....mmg muke si ulat tu mmg geram kot ngan sy, n takot ngan org DBKL tu...yela,slumber je pecahkan lobang!tp,sape cari psl dlu kot....hehehehe~^____^~======>lain kali,janganla suke amik kesempatan pd org yg lemah...hehehhe~

kid's world

2010-08-25T03:12:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

minggu ni agak sibuk sbb berulang alik ke shah alam sbb nak tgk tokwan n maktok kat sana....jalan kat k.l ni, paham2 jela...nk g s.alam yg should be just about 20-30 min pon jadi sejam stengah~haih...sunggoh penyabar warga2 k.l yek...hehe

ujung mggu lepas, me n my sister pegi la bbuka kat mid valley...sambil tggu azan, saje jejalan kat bhgian kanak2 ni...mak aih~comel gile baju raya budak2...GERAM kot tgk...sbb comel sgt!haha

tringat zaman kecik2...xde kot baju kurung utk budak2 kecik umor 2-3 taun ni...skrg ni,cari je umo bape pon ada!pttla budak2 skrg comel2 blaka...zaman2 sy dlu,comot2 je..hehe~

sampin pon ade sampin segera...comel sunggoh~haha...kalau raya kat kedah, pagi2 raya tu denga la mak lang sy terjerit2 kejar anak2 lelaki die nak pakaikan sampin segera ni...bile balik solat raya,sampin ke mana, butang baju ke mana...pepon, sume budak2 ni mmg segak bgaya pagi2 raya tiap2 taun...:)

orang cakap, raya ni utk budak2 kecik...betol kot...prasaan zaman kecik2 ngan skrg mmg bbeza...walaupon zaman dlu xpose,tp excited nye lain...sbb tu ada sstgh ibu bapa, sanggup xberbelanja baju raya utk diri sndiri sbb nk simpan bujet utk anak2...:)

jadi kanak2 mmg best kn!!!^^

my wan (~_~)

2010-08-19T09:52:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

ni la die atuk sy @ kami panggil 'wan'...:)

i really hope wan's condition will get better~ smoga kami berjumpa pakar neuro yang terbaik...ameen~

wan saya adalah seorang ustaz yang sgt berfikiran terbuka, sangat menjana minda, rajen membaca, sukakan ilmu, dan independent...

wan yang didik saya utk rajen membaca dengan melanggan mcm2 majalah kanak2 utk sy n shida dari kami kecik lg...he owns his own library in the house and buy such a lot of different kind of books even novels to encourage us to read eventhough we're not that 'rajen'...hehe

wan jugak yang rajen melayan kami, cucu2...xkedekut duit...rajen beli mainan, anak patung, cokelat, baju kat kami semua...

sy xdapat bayangkan if anything bad happen to a person yg sgt2 sy sayang...tokwan~ :'(

salam ramadhan 2010...:)

2010-08-10T01:25:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

alhamdulillah,da masok posting psychiatry...again~:)

as usual,mmg lawak kalau pegi ward psychiatry...mmg asek gelak je...bagus jugak sbb xdela tension2!^^

some of the previous patient were still there...maybe baru masok semula...but mostly, new faces~

pagi ni, kene pegi kelas awal...maklumla,tiba2 doc nak buat kelas pkul 7.30 pagi...kene klua awal as nak jalan ke ward psychiatry pon plg cepat 20 minit...klua2 asrama...still gelap suram2 mcm tuh...

and tiba2 denga bacaan al-Quran kuat sgt...dr restoran dekat2 situ...rasa mcm bulan pose plak~rindu ramadhan!

alhamdulillah, kita dah mula bpose esok...salam ramadhan dari sy~ moga amal ibadah bertambah n dterima ALLAH...ameennn....:)

jangan curi2 makan ok?? :)

inspiring me...:D

2010-08-07T01:30:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

"dont make ur family as a reason u can't success in ur carrier and don't make ur carrier as a reason u cannot contribute to ur family"

just wanna share a story of a great woman that inspire me...

i'm a type of person who don't really think of what will be in the future...i don't dare to dream as i know, i'll be sad of what i'm dreaming off will be just a dream...so, bile org tnya, "lala nak sambung blaja ape nanti?"...my honest answer will be "lala xtau...xpenah piki pon"

i always think that medicine will limit my time...as i won't have enough time to serve my parents, my future husband and my future kids...*hehehe* due to the time constrain...maklumlah,banyak sgt crita yg sy denga, doc ni sibuk,sibuk,sibuk! so,bertambah2lah idea utk brenti kerja n menjaga rumah insyaALLAH bila bertemu jodoh n contract with JPA da abes...

but yesterday, a woman's story really inspire me to become a successful woman...she's so positive, cheerful and adorable!Datuk Dr. Norashikin, an O&G specialist..dalam crita inspirasi wanita kot!kat astro prima...antara kata2 beliau...

"orang yang berjaya adalah orang yg sentiasa berkhidmat dan berjasa pada orang lain tanpa mengharapkan balasan"

" ALLAH membantu sy, mempermudahkan urusan saya kerana saya berjanji akan berkhidmat n membantu wanita2 lain dan saya menunaikan janji sy"

"dalam setiap hal yang kita dapat, alami, bersyukurlah...sentiasa mendah tangan pada AllAh dan mengucap syukur alhamdulillah kerana xsemua yg kita alami @ dapat itu dialami dan diberikan pd org lain"

"jangan ambil apa yang bukan hak kita, duit, makanan, @ apa2 pon...kerana ia berkaitan dgn keberkatan"

mulai smalam...saya dah mula ada angan2 sikit utk diri saya....hee~:D

medicine...:)

2010-08-03T22:07:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...:)

dah abes exam clinical,LEGA,LEGA,LEGA...utk kwn2 yg xabes lg, gudluck...^^

medicine posting ni, mmg byk kene cover, kene igt, kene rajen, kene practice...sume kene lah!:P ntahla, posting ni rasa mcm xcukup je...8 minggu nak cover sume management la, masa ni la nak blaja x-ray in detail, ubat2 sume...

tringat masa junior medicine dulu, mmg asek enjoy je...org g ward, kami kua shopping, makan2, tido kat surau!hahaha...kalau tringat mmg lawak pon ade...:P stat clinical la makan byk fastfood sbb mmg byk kua...tp skrg, jalan TAR tu pon xpenah jenguk sejak posting medicine nih!haha...:P

alhamdulillah,syukur sgt2....long case, examiner dpt lecturer grup sy sndiri...alhamdulillah Allah permudahkan, maybe sbb die dah kenal sy...short case dapat doktor yg sgt2 baik...dah abes exam terus terdetik "hati doktor ni mmg secantik wajahnye"...hehe...

alhamdulillah pass long case n short case...:)

jumaat ni ujian bertulis pulak~aduhai...tp da abes exam clinical, rasa cm da abes exam lak!:P

mak n abah kat k.l...sibuk nak cari baju raya, kasut raya, butang baju raya, keronsang raya...sume yg raya2 lah!hehe...semangat btl!pose belum lagi nih...:PP

"lala bila free ni, jom la klua nak beli baju raya ni,lepas ni pose, nak terawih lg, xlarat lg bla3.... "

cepat sgt masa berlalu...dah pose dah!rasa mcm cepat sgt...huhu~moga bulan pose ni, bertmbah la amalan kite...:)

psychiatry,psychiatry,psychiatry....after this!---->suke!(^^,)

'watch' d 'clock'...:)

2010-07-29T11:46:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

bila nak exam ni lah, jam buat hal~

spnajang idop sy, adiah plg byk sy dapat adelah jam tangan!ntahla kenape...dr kecik kot!still remember my 1st watch, adiah dr tok wan masa umo 5 taun...jam digital, sbb jam manual ni, darjah 4 baru reti baca!haha...terok betol~:P masa tu, i always wonder, mcm mane jarum jam ni bgerak??xnampak pon...so,i always spend my time merenung jarum jam, tp mmg xdpt detect how it moves...because it really moves smoothly!

sy xsuka org hadiahkan sy jam...kenapa?

sbb semua jam yg sy dpt, samaada hilang, rosak, pecah and even penah hancur...but still, people tends to give me watch as a present even until now....haha~rasa bersalah...malu....but ntahla, mybe dtakdirkan jam bukanlah hadiah tbaik utk sy..hehe

baru2 ni, kua dgn shida...

"lala,kamu nak jam ni x, kami blanje kira adiah..."
------mata yang melihat....cantiknya....harga pon cantik je kalau nak 'pau' akak sndiri ni...but,

"xpela shida...km ada dah jam,kne ganti bateri je..."

------dlm hati...sedihnya~~

arini, pegi nak isi bateri jam...rupa2nya bkn bateri abes, jam mmg btl2 rosak...so,dlm kekalutan nak masok waktu maghrib and duit dlm beg duit yg ade just 35 rgt ni,

"bang, kasi jela mane2 jam yg murah2...sy nak exam ni,kene ade jam"

last2 dpt jam 10 rggt, but ROLEX....hahahhaha...xle blah!adoi~...xpela,asalkan lepas utk exam ni pon da cukup syukur...

bila balik..."ira, cantik x jam 10 hengget aku??"

haha...:P

moga dipermudahkan urusan kita semua...ameen~

WHY?

2010-07-26T04:23:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

kenapa ye???

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whatever it is, i'm proud to be MUSLIM....:)

memory

2010-07-25T00:41:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

tgh mengemas2 barang,tiba2 ternampak beg barang2 dlu....

hidup kan umpama jongkang jongket...sekejap kita diatas, n sekejap lagi kita di bawah~

zaman muda mudi yang mmg sgt sukekan bear...tp skrg,x lagi...i should spend my money for something better...:)

how much we change as years passed by...

it's all for our own good...insyaALLAH...

p/s: ya ALLAH,permudahkan urusanku dan rakan2ku dlm exam medical nanti...ameen~

new baby...:)

2010-07-22T18:16:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

ntah nape, pagi ni asyik tringat kak hana aje...bila nak bsalin, bila nak dpt baby...hehehe!tup2, pagi ni bee msg..."lala!!!!kak hana dah dlm labour room, dah nak bsalin"

kuat jugak instinct ni kn!:P waaaa....sgt xsaba!!!!maklumla, bile xde anak sedare sndiri, anak sedara sahabat sndiri tu dah jd mcm anak sdara sndiri dah....hehe!!tringat masa pegi umah kak hana aritu, punyala banyak soalan die tnya...curious btl utk baby kali ni...maklumla,baby girl...hehe!^^

pepon,happy sgt2...n xsaba tunggu msg bee ni nnt!^^

sume perempuan, mesti tringin nak melalui saat ni...dari saat mengandung sampaila saat melahirkan anak....:)

kak hana cakap, tiap2 kali check up, mesti suami die ikot..."ustaz lagi banyak tanya soalan, curious dr akak"...haha! mmg perlu seorang suami ambil bahagian dlm pkembangan anak sedari dlm perut...bila sy jumpa kwn2 skola yg llki ni,mesti ckp "korang nnt,istri bsalin masok dlm labour room tu bg insaf sket...jgn dah klua baby baru nak masuk...haha"

bye naufal,kak lala nak sayang baby baru plak...:P hope abang baby, naufal dah xsuke majok2 lagi....salah satu cara utk membuat anak matang n xmanja berlebihan adelah memberikan dia adek...^^ hehe

risau

2010-07-12T06:00:00.001-07:00

ya ALLAH...risaunya~

:'(

accident...again

2010-07-09T02:06:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

kemalangan yg sama terjadi lagi...tp,bukan sy...tapi pd akak sy...

still remember last week, where i really insist to go back...but

abah: kalau xde kawan balik sama2 ngan lala, lala naik bas jela eh...bahaya ni

me: ala...mslhnya bukit jalil tu mcm bahaya tau bah...

abah: jangan...skrg musim hujan

sekadar gambar hiasan dalam AGU saya...hehe

abah sy susah sket nak lepas balik sorang2 sbb die tau sy jenis yg boleh kene sleep attack dimana2...i admit, there's few times i had sleep attack while i'm driving and i'm actually sleep for seconds! mmg bahaya...what to do!!!sometimes u just cant depend on others because u need to be independent...x selalunya org sentiasa ada bersama kita kn...

but this week, lain pulak critanya

abah: kalau xde kawan2 balik pon, lala drive jela slow2 ok...balik minggu ni

me: ooo...rindu lala la tuh!hehe...lala mmg nak balik pon...ipah n miza ada skali...:)

abah: bagus2

pagi ni, tba2 dpt sms mak..."shida accident teruk...kereta hancur remuk...nasib die x apa2...lala bawak kreta nanti baik2...jgn ngantok2...ngantok,brenti dlu...bla3"

it's just an exaggerate picture...hehe

masyaALLAH...terkejut...but alhamdulillah she's ok...
still remember last time masa sy yg accident...i'm too scared and need a hand to be hold...tangan shida jadi mangsa...i hold her tight! i know, she's in pain...but she just let it be because she knows i need her....
i hope i can be with her too...but, we're separated b distance...

it's a must for someone who's involve in any accident to have FOBIA...sy fobia gle kot dlu...and i'm sure shida juga...but i must admit it's good sbb, kita akan lbh bhati2 n bjaga2...for minah rempit macam shida, mmg patut kot...lepas ni boleh bawak slow2 skit...hehehe:PP

yesterday n today,i should say i'm involved in an 'accident' too...betulla,ethics dlm medic ckp, no relationship between doctors and patients...betul3...!!!tapi kita ni, manusia...kalau ada pakcik tua yg sgt kasihan...mcm nak jadikan kita ni anak angkat....sometimes, profesionalism kalah dengan humanity...
saya xsangka...rupa2nya, ada udang d sebalik mee....aaaarrrghhhh!!!sgt geram n takot~

pengajaran: kalau patient minta no tepon anda, instead of u giving ur own number, u should ask for their number...so,xdela terjadinya apa2 gejala gangguan yg xsepatutnya...xkisahla patient muda ke tua...

ok,nak drive balik dah...doakan sy!!!^^

family...always comes 1st!^^

2010-07-06T06:49:00.000-07:00

sometimes  i just feel like they give me too much...

Ya Allah, permudahkan urusan keluargaku dan peliharakanlah kami..

i always touched by my father's word...sometimes, when someone talk less, whenever they start to speak out, it will always helps...

trima kasih abah...^^

thinking too many things lately...especially about my family~

ira: aku rindu ayah aku

me: aku pon....:'(

german!

2010-07-03T09:49:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

wow!german sgt hebat...syg german!:D

ni pertama kali sy tgk bola sepanjang world cup ni...(tipu la kalau ckp xpenah tgk lgsg bola kn...hehe) so,my team is GERMANY...selalunya ada je reporter2 yg merepot psl game german lawan, but today i watch myself...bosan sgt la tu!hihi...

now i know, why people are so affected by football....tringat one of my patient last week...kene hypertension attack at 4.00a.m during watching one of the football match! tergelak2 dlm hati masa tu..tgk bola pon bole kene hypertension ke??

"abang sakit kepala sgt2 lepas tgk bola pukul 4 pagi td...xsangka pulak sbb darah tinggi"

"team abang kalah ke menang?"

"KALAH"

owh, now i know penangan bola tu mcm mana...mmg boleh induce hypertension kot!haha...

bola2...pepon, TAHNIAH to germany!!:D

p/s: bola, bola jugak...kesihatan kene jaga...:D

because u can...

2010-07-01T10:09:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

wah!lame xupdate que sera sera senior...sempat post gamba2 menarik kat que sera sera junior je...hehe

xde masa sbenanye...balik pon pukul 7, pegi kelas pkul 8...xmasok on call lagi!betulla,5th year ni mmg PENAT!!!nak cari free dlm timetable pon payah...kelas memanjang!hee

so,masa suntuk, byk hal nak fikir, nak settle kan...sesetengahnya we should leave to HIM sbb manusia ni xberkemampuan buat semua...fikir semua...kn?

kdg2 sy fikir jugak, mcm mana kalau benda ni jadi, tu jadi....ya ALLAH serabutnya!abah sllu cakap...'kenapa kena fikir benda yg xjadi lagi???' betol gak!kenapa nak serabutkan otak yg mmg dah serabut macam semak samun yg dah penuh dgn lalang2 tinggi??hehe...

dan bila saya ada masalah.....sy xnak bia senyum tu hilang...sebab....

sebab saya tahu,saya boleh tersenyum!:)

jadi, jadilah seorang hamba Allah yg kuat...sbb anda boleh!:)

itu aje...nak smbg study balek lah!hehe....

pinjaman sementara

2010-06-19T21:44:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

kesakitan dunia hanya sementara..

saya dah xigt bile kali trakhir saya nanges dsebabkan tejatuh @ papela...jatuh terpelanting dlm longkang besar dulu pon xnanges~but smlm bile kaki tercucuk besi yg mencacak, i feel like 'masyaAllah,sakitnya ya Tuhanku...' and tanpa sedar sbb tlalu sakit, tkeluar jugak air mata ni...

darah yang keluar, tentunya banyak menitis2, dan lukanya mmg dalam...even saya pelajar perubatan, bila terkena kat diri sndiri btl2 blurr....jadi xtau nak buat ape...risau pon ada, sakit pon ada...

bila paginya, saya bangun, sakit masih sama...saya terfikir, ni baru ALLAH ambil satu nikmat...diberikan luka yg kecil pada hanya 1 bahagian badan...tu pon dah xtertanggung sakitnya...mcm mana pulak dgn org yang terbakar 1 badan??yang patah tulang??yang kene tembak??? tentu kalau nak bbangdingkan dgn apa sy alami,mmg xterbanding pon...

bila ALLAH tarik 1 nikmat, barula kita sedar betapa penting & berharganya nya apa yg kita ada skrg...tangan, kaki, mulut, mata, badan sume2lah! kalau salah 1 ni xde n xberfungsi dgn sempurna, barula nak terkenang nikmat yang ALLAH pinjamkan dlu...sbb pernahkah @ kerapkah kita mengucapkan syukur alhamdulillah setiap kali kita dapat berjalan dan berlari, melihat, bercakap, membaling, melompat...saya rasa tak ramai yang duduk dan merenung betapa besarnya nikmat yang AllAh pinjamkan ni...termasuklah saya...kita tahu, tapi kita lupa, ni sume adalah PINJAMANNYA~

sebab tu ALLAH bagi kita sakit,supaya kita lebih ingat padaNYA...trima kasih ya RABB~

moral of the story: bersyukurlah dgn apa yang ALLAH berikan...sume tu hanya pinjaman sementara, sekelip mata je ALLAH boleh tarik balik nikmat tu

have a nice day!^^

tompok hujan~!!!!

2010-06-17T03:33:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

"untuk melihat hujan atau tak, kadang2 kita xperlu melihat awan diatas tetapi melihat percikan air dibawah"

a fren : ko penah tak mngalami situasi ni?

me: situasi ape?

a fren: iskkk

a fren: if ko dr umah or kat mane2 bawah bumbung

a fren: kdg2 ko xtau pon ujan or tak

a fren: tgk atas mcm tak je

a fren: sbb xnmpak

a fren: air ujan ko xnmpak

a fren: so care laen nk tau ko tgk la kat linangan air kat jln2

a fren: ade tompok2 bulat tuh tak

me: ok~penah2!!!

me: so,maksud mendalam nye ape?

a fren: cissss

a fren: ingt da phm

a fren: mksd nye

a fren: utk memahami sesuatu masalah or situasi sukar or senang

a fren: xsemesti kite perlu hnya melihat pade satu care je

a fren: byk care bolah

a fren: boleh

a fren: hahaha

me: oooo...ok...

me: hahaha

me: complicated gak ayat nih!

me: hehe

a fren: hahaha

a fren: kate ayat kene power

a fren: wakakka

a fren: lg satu mksd nye

a fren: xsemesti setiap bnda kite kene pndang tinggi

a fren: kdg2 kene gak pandang secare sederhane

me: ko kat sane blaja satera ke ape...

me: haha

a fren: bukan2

a fren: aku blaja tntang maksud kehidupan

a fren: wakakakka

mula2, mcm blurr jugak!tapi, ayat ni mmg sesuai dgn masalah @ ketensionan yg jadi arini...:)

so, i should look at the +ve side of my LIFE!

berusaha lagi cik lala!!!^^

thanks cikgu sastera!haha...

macam mana nak kurus???

2010-06-15T11:22:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

macam mane nak kurus???

sy tringat 1 kisah benar yg sy tonton masa skola rendah...crita tu mmg berikan kesan n ingatan mendalam pd sy...kisah gadis penghidap ANEROXIA!!

ini sarapan sy:

xboleh!ini menggemukkan...mulai hari ni,ini adalah makanan awak setiap hari

sekeping biskut yang dibahagikan 4 bahagian...1 bahagian pagi, 1 bahagian tgh hari, 1 bahagian ptg n 1 bahagian malam...

dalam masa yang singkat! 'wah...kamu sgt kurus & cantik...ape rahsianya???'

hari demi hari...badan yg kurus masih dirasakan gemuk...

sehingga keluarga gadis ini tahu hal sbenar dan masukkan dia dlm pusat pemulihan...

tapi masalah xberhenti disitu...dia terjebak dlm masalah BULIMIA pulak...

makan dgn byknya!dan akhirnya muntahkan semula....

dan akhirnya gadis ini mati dsebabkan fungsi badan dah 'shut down'

siapa yang nak gemuk??

tapi menjadi kurus bukanlah segala-gala nya

ape yg penting---kesihatan yang baik

amalkan diet seimbang dan bersenam...bukan menjadi seorang yang obsesif utk menjadi kurus

utk peringatan diri sendiri juga^^

majlis perkahwinan pertama...

2010-06-14T09:39:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

bilik baru, floor baru, susunan baru, semester baru, roommate je xbaru...cik ira!hehe...:P

akhirnya, cuti yg pada mulanya dirasakan 'sy cuti sbulan...lame kn!', tapi akhirnya 'cuti da nak abessss,mcm kejap sgt!'...haha!inilah manusia, mane pernah rasa cukup...kerana sifat kita yg fakir...melangkah ke tahun 5, rasa mcm kejap je masa blalu....dah 5th yr dah kami sume...ya ALLAH, mmg benar, dunia hampir kiamat...sbb masa berjalan sgt2 pantas...!!!

moga ALLAH permudahkan urusan saya n kawan2 utk semester baru ni!!!walaupon byk kene blaja drugs yg bukan kegemaran langsung,nak buat cmne...nama pon blaja~hehe!semangat lala,semangat!!!:D

event hujung mggu ni, majlis pkahwinan ptama dlm sume kwn2 sy...1st time nih!!hehe...tahniah TEIN!!!!^___^ skrg ni sume sibuk bercakap hal KAHWIN...i'd asked 1 of my fren on fb,

"nape sume sibuk ckp psl kawin ey skrg?"

"lala oiii...kita dah 23, kene pk mende tu...kita bkn budak kecik lg"

BETUL2, kita mmg kene pk BETUL2...!!sbb ini tanggungjawab, baik d pihak lelaki and perempuan...amanah...bukan bile bosan,tinggal,cari yg lain~

sorang lg kwn ckp, fikir psl kawin, dah sedia ke dari segi emosi, kewangan, pemikiran yang matang, and toleransi n sifat berkongsi??----kenyataan yg tepat dan xle disangkal...hehe

tp sy SURE, tein mmg dah bersedia n layak ke alam perkahwinan...

moga TEIN bahagia dunia akhirat hendaknye!!!^__^ ameeen~

back to school

2010-06-05T00:28:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

feels like d holiday is too short!plez,plez,plez....

cuti ni, i fill it with lot of things! feels like it's d last holiday i'll be having, so i wanna fulfill it with something meaningful~^^

i currently just went back from HKSBP (hari kecemerlangan skola berasrama penuh) which i think it's too nice and meaningful experience! to be back to school life, but of course not as a student anymore makes me recall back my past life...^^

i watch d best @ fav team for both debate and bahas...both have it's own aura but i think bahas lebih menusuk kalbu kot!haha...rasa cm peluru dusshhh tembak betul2 kat hati~mungkin sbb menggunakan bahasa melayu yg sbenarnye lebih direct...so,kalau ade salah tu, u feel like u'r d most stupid person in d world!haha...haduiii

one of the teacher there said that if she was like to 'marah2' her student, she likes to use bahasa melayu!bia lebih terasa katanya!hee...but i myself, prefer english when i'm kinda angry with anyone...because i did feel bahasa mlayu will be too harsh dan menusuk kalbu kot!except when i really cant tolerate with it anymore, so, rasakan panahan menusuk kalbu tu~hehehe :P ------but jarang gile2 lah kot kalau nak jadi pon!

but usually d most cool n cute will win!so,tahniah pd SDAR and SBPI gombak yg mmg sgt2 cool and tenang~utk debate pula...tahniah pd SAS and STAR yg akan btarung d akhir di PICC nnt!feels like going there this 31st July!^^

sbelom sy tinggalkan tulisan kali ni, let's together boicott barang2 keluaran israel n america...selagi yg tmampu la ye~baik ada usaha dr xde lgsg...yg suke makan ayam tu,silelah bkunjung ke RADIX FC...

ustaz kazim cakap, ayam radix ni, ayam organik, xdicucuk, 24hours dipasang ayat alQuran dlm kandang ayam ni...wallahualam~ tp,masok dlm kedai Radix FC ni, pekerjanya sume tutup aurat, yg dtg pon tutup aurat, harganya xmahal, rasanya SEDAP!dijamin...^^

if I feel....

2010-06-04T20:53:00.000-07:00

If I feel depressed I will sing.
If I feel sad I will laugh.
If I feel ill I will double my labour.
If I feel fear I will plunge ahead.
If I feel inferior I will wear new garments.
If I feel uncertain I will raise my voice.
If I feel poverty I will think of wealth to come.
If I feel incompetent I will think of past success.
If I feel insignificant I will remember my goals.
Today I will be the master of my emotions.
(^_^)

but sometimes when u feel like wanna burst out, it doesn't mean that u don't understand d situation, but sometimes u just need ears to listen

we're all human btw

(^___^)

2010-06-04T12:17:00.000-07:00

comel kot video klip lagu ni...^^

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TDMTpAT4xpw

perubahan pemikiran...

2010-05-25T10:48:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

baru2 ni berkesempatan bsembang tentang cita2 dgn insan dari 3 lapisan umur...

(ANAS-sepupu sy yg berusia 9 tahun)

me: anas nak jadi ape bile besa nnt?

anas: anas ada 3 cita2.. anas nk jd angkasawan, profesor, bussinessman..

me: amboi!byknya...*dlm hati--profesor tu pkerjaan ke??hehehe*

anas: org keje ni suma byk duit! anas nak jd kaya n kira duit ja nnt!

ayah anas: anas ni mmg mata duitan...jgn dok heran la lala!haha...

(ADIK-satu2nya adik sy, lelaki...dah form 5 dah...)

me: adik, mak ckp adik nk jd chef...yeke??stakat masak maggi tu, akak xnampak gaya chef pon...xle nak byg ni dik!haha

adik: org main2 jela...haha!org pon xtau nak jd ape...pening2!! tp yg pasti adik nk keje yg pakai kot smart2,pakai tie and bg adik nampak hensem n bgaya!haha

me: ek???ape mende tu??haha...dah2,xyahla susah2 pk...blaja betul2 dulu utk SPM ni...

mak: lala jgn layan sgt ngan adik tu, kejap die nk jd doktor veterinar, kejap nk jd engineer, kejap nk jd cikgu, kejap nk jd chef... bertukar!!mak pon da pening da...

(WAWA-sepupu yg skrg umo 20)

pak ngah: lala tlgla nasihatkan wawa ni...dah dpt medic, nak buat dietician pulak!pakngah nak jugak merasa anak pakngah jd doktor

wawa: kak lala...mcm mana ni...wawa xnk medic,nanti xde life!wawa takot...

me: xde life??akak rs ok je kot...hehe!tp, sbenanye, kalau minat, sume pon ok wawa...jgn paksa diri, but utk prospek keje,medic lebih terjamin...

wawa: kak lala...xde option lain ke slain medic...wawa xminat

me: doktor gigi??bole kaya tau!high demand jugak...

wawa: ha'ah la...nanti wawa pk...thanks kak lala!

and now, denga2 wawa dah decide buat course dentist kat UIA...alhamdulillah...settle kehendak sume pihak...:)

peralihan umur,tahap pemikiran yg semakin matang dan realiti hidup buatkan byk keputusan berubah... kalau kita masih igt lagi tentang cita2 zaman kecil...adekah ia masih sama dan berakhir dgn cita2 yg sama kini??

saya pon xigt sgt, but mak sy ckp, dari sy kecik, sy sllu ckp cita2 sy nak jd doktor...kat skola rendah, bila cikgu tnya, jwb doktor sbb tiru org...bila skola menengah benci biology tp suke fizik, jd, tukar cita2 nk jd engineer...but bila matrik, tuka nak jd cikgu sbb nak byk cuti...

tapi akhirnya....sy dlm bidang perubatan...(^_^) sy trima ketentuan ALLAH utk sy...:)

tapi xdinafikan, cita2 tu pembakar semangat utk kita berjaya...tp,apa yg bakal mendatang, itulah yg perlu kita hadapi tanpa menoleh kebelakang...usaha,usaha dan usaha...insyaALLAH...^^

thanks 4 reading
have a nice day!^^,

L.O.S.T

2010-05-23T18:03:00.000-07:00

patience is the best remedy for every trouble..

stay healthy...will u??

2010-05-21T04:28:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum....

stay healthy till d end?? :)

today, me n my mom out for a jog in padang polo which just located bout 3 minutes from d house??hehe...it's just nearby, but this is my 1st time joining ipoh's citizen having some excersize here...mungkin dsebabkan kurangnya kesedaran and finally i myself need to encourage my mom to go for excersize...so,org ckp sbelom suruh org, kite kene buat dlu...haha~

lepas subuh, teros siap and taraaa...my mom looks nice with sports outfit!=) sape ckp org tua xboleh bersukan dsebabkan pakaian?? asalkan menutup aurat dan xmenjolok mata, for me xsalah...

pdg polo is more or less like tasik titiwangsa k.l which d place where most people went for a jog and beriadah kata org melayu...hee~so, RAMAI gile kot!hehe...paling muda, is about 15 months boy until setua2 manusia...---lala, this kind of people pon come for excersize k!haha...malu dgn diri sndiri...ok2, from now on, i'll join!:P

it's not just do activities by urself...byk group senaman aerobic, taichi, 'mudah,senang & sabar'---which i dont have any idea what it's all about~hihi...so, we can just join them!=) org ckp, d more, d merrier...yah,it's true...my mom, 'lala, jomla kite buat 1 round lagi'-----which was d 3rd round dat time...oh my GOD!!!1 round pon da berkilometer!haha...but,xpela, penggalak semangat kn kene lg kuat...:PP

i have a very good time this morning...:) dengan semangat 1 Malaysia nye...nice!:)

"i think i wanna do this kind of activities everyday"---said my mom to a chinese woman...^___^

YES!!!---misi berjaya...:)

cook like a .........

2010-05-19T09:57:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

cuti ni??tinggalkan buku....jom ke dapur!^^

this is the only time i'll be cooking for my family...lepas ni,sibuk blaja,sibuk keje, masihkah ada masa utk ringankan beban mak?? jom la kawan2, at least blaja memasak k!^^

yang pedas, pasti ade manis...:)

sekarang kan trend cupcakes...nak blaja buat utk btday abah nanti...but cupcakes penuh icing,family xsuke icing~cm mane tu...hee

hmm, happy birthday~ (",)

my little brother loves cookies~ i'd tried once and i wanna try it again!^^ yummy!

lastly, my all family member's fav---pudding ~^__^~

moh ler kite.....

2010-05-09T00:46:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

sy baru je menderma darah!=)

alhamdulillah, lepas jugak menderma darah even just borderline hemoglobin dan BP yg rendah!hehe...ni kali kedua sy menderma...org sebelah sy, dah 37 kali menderma!!!!!waaah....hebat2...ramai pesakit berhutang darah dgn die...heehee...:P

utk pengetahuan semua, tabung darah mmg sentiasanya xcukup...kenapa??ramai pesakit cthnya seorang pesakit talesemia major memerlukan 2-3 pack of blood utk transfusion setiap 9-14 hari...sedangkan seorang penderma just dpt menderma plg byk 500ml darah bersamaan 1 pack darah...

bukan org xnak menderma sbenanye...tp ramai yg takot sakit, fobia tgk jarum, takot tgk darah....aleh2, tgk pulak jarumnya...mak nenek!!besa gile....haha~

jarum besa gile,mcm nk cucuk kulit gajah!sakit laa....

---jarum mmg besa...but, before dicucuk, nurse cucuk ubat tahan sakit dlu...kalau takot sgt, pejam mata...bukak2, e'eh!dah kelua darah!hee...=)

sbenanye menderma darah ni baik utk penderma, tapi berisiko utk penerima....so, xrugi kalau menderma...sbb ape.....

darah lama yg ade dlm badan pekat...so, ia berisiko utk cepat membeku and block d vessels...bila kite kluakan darah lama, sel2 akan bina sel2 darah baru yg lebih aktif and sihat!=D darah xpekat lagi....

bak kata akak nurse yg incharge blood bank, katanya, org yg kerap menderma ni appears to be younger than their real age...hmmm....tgk akak sbelah ni, 37 kali menderma, umo 38, tp nampak mcm 25!siyes....hehe~betol la kot

dgn menderma, anda dpt menyelamatkan sebuah nyawa...isk3

org cakap...kalau menderma nnt jadi gemok!yeke???

---mana ade...itu hanyalah mitos smata2!hehe....

jomla ramai2 menderma darah...jgnla kedekut...sbb badan akan hasilkan darah baru for free!!xkene klua duit pon...heehee...

M.E.L.A.K.A

2010-04-29T05:55:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

semua 4th year tgh bergembira posting elektif..--i guess so!:)

it's nice to be in malacca...seriously!tempatnye sgt2 bersih, byk tempat yg boleh dilawati and seriously, BYK GILE shopping mall!haha...--mungkin org melaka ni kaki shopping...=P

posting medical...hmmm...it's ok la...xpela,tinggalkan dlu ttg wad yg dah diberi utk sy...huhu~ ok!akhirnya, berjumpa jugak dgn my old fren, makcik alia!!!!!rindu2...she's never change!still mcm dlu...haha~ manipal's students are mostly nice!=)

yesterday night, ira n i went to d town...intentionally to go to eye on malaysia...tp rupe2nya da tutup...

naseb da penah naik eye on malaysia kat k.l...hee~

so,we spend our time berjalan2 menghirup udara malam...no joke,it's really nice to walk along the roadside dekat2 a-famosa n museum sume2 tuh!even cuti, still ramai family mlepak2 kat situ, bawak anak2 release stress kot...suke sgt!---kalaula kat ipoh ade tempat2 cmni...:P

nanti nak try riverboat plak...^^

dr dlu, mmg tringin nk naik beca....and finally!hajat tercapai..ade 2 pakcik, sorang muda n sorang tua...for sure we choose yg muda coz we know, we're not that 'ringan' kot!haha...but the old man really insist to take us jejalan!

beca berbunga2 cinta!adoiii....haha

kami: pakcik, kami ni berat ni!dah tu baru lepas makan pulak..takot pakcik xlarat pulak

pakcik: ish!mana ade...kurus2 je kamu ni (ececece...:P) pakcik dah bawak org gemuk2 ramai dah,larat lagi ni!jom2,pakcik bawak..

pakcik beca briya nk amikkan gamba...tp bgegar2...xpela,semangat yg penting!hehe

byk tempat die bawak!siap berenti soh km amik gamba n ajar cmne nk posing lg!haha...comel je!hee...dsebabkan pakcik ni dah tua, n kami pon xla ringan, sometimes nmpak die penat mengayuh,especially bile naik bukit!rs cm nk turun n tolak sesama...

for some people, they need to use their skills, for some ppl, they use their brain n knowledge n for several ppl, they need to use their strength for their source of income...so, masing2 tempuhi susah n senang dlm cara masing2...that's life...

for the 1st time, finally someone's close break d chain!my fren going to get married~~^______^~ alhamdulillah...=)

(^________________^)

hold the key...

2010-04-23T11:05:00.000-07:00

thank you ALLAH...

GOODBYE 4th year...

hello MELAKA

WELCOMING 5th year...

insyaALLAH

when dealing with the most cutest creature in the world!^^

2010-04-21T06:52:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

alhamdulillah...exam is over!!!^__^

rasanya mcm sgt lega kot!finally...d last posting in 4th year dah pon tamat...and lepas ni sambung pd elective plak di mlaka!^^

byk sy blaja kat posting ni...to much to be covered and different approach for children compared to adult!skrg, mungkin cara sy melihat kanak2 sedikit bbeza dr sebelumnye...it's more to medical approach and on their appropriate development milestone~hee...

hopefully even this exam is not perfect, but it covers here and there for each session...ameen~~insyaALLAH...

my 1st patient...irritable and xbrape bg kerjasama...long case plak tuh!which i need to perform all examination to her...baru nk dekat je...

"TAKNAK!!!"

"alooo...cket je akak nk denga ni...bolehla..."

"TAKNAK!!!"

"ok2,akak xcek..."..---sambil stetoscope kat chest that girl---(main tipu!hehe)

haha...that's y i said child is unpredictable...mak aih...nasebla si ibu sgt baik...alhamdulillah...and finally i just manage to auscultate the lung....alahai~ but alhamdulillah,session with doctor quite smooth,insyaALLAH...

my short case, biasala budak2 staun ni duduk x diam....xpela...but i sweat like there's boiling water rite above my head!punyelah takot...haha!lawak pon ade...tergelak2 jugakla ngan doc sambil tangan pegang tisu..ohh!it's terrible...and agak sengal...

"ok...what do u think the most likely type of nephrotic syndrome for this patient??"

"MPGN"

"ok...which stands for...."

"---muka tension bfikir----"

"aduhai...bila exam ni la nk lupe...hehe!"

"haha...it's ok2..."

dengan slumbernye ckp bhasa mlayu ngan doc!dahla psl tlupa plak tuh!hehehehe....

they said, the most important approach in dealing with kids is patience!and that's really true...still remember: masa nk cek patient masa nk main2 aritu...pateint tb2 nanges like waaaa!!!!!sgt kuat smp 1 wad tgk sy...

'oh honey, did i do anything wrong to u???'

mula2 nye,cm agak trasa....---poyo nk mrajuk ngan budak2!haha...but bila pk2 balik...come on lala!budak2 lah!:P

pepon, GUDLUCK EVERYBODY!!!

SmILe....always and forever!!!=)

look up!

2010-04-03T20:50:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

sunyinya,sunyinya,sunyinya asrama ni.....

mggu ni,most of the student balik...bosan2...sunyi juge...sllunya denga bunyi2 bising2 org ckp2, dinding sbelah bunyi 'dumm' 'dumm'---mybe ditendang masa mamai2 tdo oleh jiran sbelah...but mggu ni sunyi!haha...rindula korang sume...

u wont miss d water until d drains went dry...

girls group A

exam is just around d corner...byknye xcover lg...srius i'm so cuak!if u gave me an option to further study for master, of course i wont choose paeds...it's not because i hate kids, of course not! but d disorder is quite tricky...any possibilities can go with kids...even with just simple fever or sore throat...

alolo...kecannye...

so, dont take for granted je if ur child, ur niece, ur nephew @ cousins yg comel2 tu sakit...cause they can't communicate with us bout their illness...mybe there's something serious going on with them

i'd just bought new toys for those kids...as byk toys sy dah diambil oleh kanak2 dlm wad ni...so,kempis je beg mainan...haih~tringat zaman2 kecik2...rindu....ninja turtle, barbie doll, tom & jerry, ultraman taro, power rangers...oh, oh, oh....RINDU!

tepon ade, piano ade, barbie doll ade,tractor n motor cun pon ade! tp sume beli kat kedai 2 ringgit je..=P

sem ke 8 da nk abes...rs baru je buat posting psychiatry...ni da group ke 4 da posting tu, and sok da nk exam...GUDLUCK korang!!!muka patient pon still igt lg...ni da nk masok 5th year...ya Allah...takotnye...moga Allah permudahkan urusan sy & kwn2 semua...ameen~~

BERUSAHA!

doakan kejayaan bersama...(^__^)

lost and FOUND

2010-03-21T08:20:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

sampai xreti mcm mana nk gambarkan rs lega n bsyukur padaNYA...

arini,even ahad and ari cuti, jadual 'tugasan' sy mmg betul2 penuh...buat 'keje rumah', nk g hosptl carik case, janji ngan kawan nk lunch and rush to putrajaya to settle my broadband punye hal, nk karang crita utk case presentation esok, nk study utk case lagi....aaaaaaa!!!rs mcm xcukup masa pon ade...but alhamdulillah...sume jalan dgn lancar~ALLAH beri kelapangan dan permudahkan waktu utk sume tu...(^_^)

putrajaya sgt2 panas arini...so i decide to go to the mosque and mengarang case utk esok dlm masjid besi...lebih tenang kot buat dlm masjid...=)

hanpon ni, bg sy penting utk amik gamba kot!hehe...as i seldomly sms, mybe just receiving calls @ making phone calls...so, xprasan sgt kewujudan phone...hehe~sedar2 bila nk amik gamba langit yg sgt2 cntik masa tu,anpon da xde....TAKOT SANGAT2 sbb buntu pk...adekah org curi hanpon dr beg sy masa sy bejalan2???i'm just using this phone for 6 weeks,but kalau da tu bukan rezeki sy,sy redha...=(

bila tringat masjid...ati sikit lega,mybe ttgl kat sane aje...but,adekah org akan jujur nk simpan anpon sy??i can't make any phone calls as no one with me....i'm all alone in putrajaya~xnk sshkan org utk hal sendiri kononnya...but tulah!bile ssh cmni....tringat IRA....hahaha!=P

luckily,there's sum1 with human's heart....

thanks to sum1 yg sama mcm 'dr muhammad' yg sanggup tunggu kat masjid tu for the phone's owner to come...agak kene lecture td,tp sy trima as MMG SALAH SENDIRI!!!cuai betull....huk2~

thanks to shariz yg tercall sy for something, and found out my phone left in ptrajaya...and he came along from k.l just to take back my phone...ya ALLAH...psahabatan yg xternilai harganya ...

thanks to pakcik guard and sorang akak yg willing to lend their phone and credits for a strangers like me....

HANYA ALLAH YG DAPAT MEMBALAS BUDI INSAN2 diatas...

i'm so happy until i can't stop smiling while driving from ptrajaya until k.l...haha~(^______^)~ sampaikan kat traffic light, pemandu sbelah asek pandang pelik....hahhaha!whatever....

oh,i'm sooooo HAPPY...

terbang mcm BELON...

2010-03-19T09:30:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

ati sgt2 berbunga riang...even just for a simple events...hee~

pagi dimulakan dgn dtg lambat ke kelas yg gile jauh!institute paediatric...gile penat jalan!and dsbbkan da lambat, ira n me hampir2 kene langgar masa melintas...masyaALLAH...alhamdulillah,masih selamat...sy mmg sgt2 lemah melintas jalan, as i always have 'jerking' movement mcm 'eh,eh,eh...last2 stop tgh2 jalan!' ---oh,oh,oh...bile nk handal melintas jalan ni lala??haha...and sampai2 kelas, 'KELAS CANCLE'....adoiii~~

seperti yg dijanjikan....kami ke PUTRAJAYA!nak NAIK belon udara panas...1st time ni,mestilah excited...walaupon sbenanye sy sgt2 gayat dgn tmpt tinggi...hehe!agak2 mcm dtg pagi jumaat,org mestila xramai kalau dbanding dgn sabtu @ ahad, but' i'm totally wrong!ramai gile lah...so,kami decide nk dtg sesi petang and pegi menyejukkan diri kat alamanda...

arini, ira n me tgk cite 'the green zone'...it's about america-iraq conflict dlu...perang2 sume ni,and finally, there's a story yg revealed kesalahan amerika...yg sbenanye,xde program nuklear n senjata teknology tggi pon kat iraq n sume direka utk mnyerang iraq...ntahla, jd agak sedih tgk cite ni sbb terkenang zaman saddam hussein diburu dlu...and how suffer rakyat iraq masa tu!oh,oh....EMO!hee

petangnya,kami kesana balik...and again!ramai gile...but, i'm just happy.....even hanya TENGOK org naik...belonnya sgt2 comel...if i have d chance, i would like to fly like others too~mcm sgt jeles!but xpela, tu namanya xde rezeki...sbb tu mls nk rancang n excited, sbb at last, mesti xjadi!huhu...kita merancang,tp ALLAH yg menentukan kn!hee...

buah oren diudara...hehe

jeles!=P

cantik mata!hee

time to say gudbye

area masjid besi...solat2 dan balik ke k.l semula...^_^

ade lagi gamba belon,but mls da nk upload!hehe...

jempot2la meriahkan karnival 1 fiesta,1 malaysia ni ye...^_^

that's all..have a nice day everyone!wassalam...=)

hmmm....

2010-03-16T04:53:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

penat n bz smenjak dua menjak ni...walaupon jadual paediatric x pack langsung~~mybe sbb byk kene cover...hee!

tgh duduk rehat2 ni,tringat kata2 ayah of one of my patient last week...

"kalau kamu nk tahu,inilah wajah ahli syurga"

betul!hati sy tenang sgt tengok wajah this child...yang terbaring, bedridden for her whole life, since born, can't communicate, need fully care by others...but mmg wajahnya sgt2 tenang...this patient is having cerebral palsy...penyakit saraf paling common kat budak2...even mcm tu, kanak2 mcm ni mmg dah dijanjikan syurga oleh Allah...kita yg 'sempurna' ni???

sy sgt salute dgn ibu bapa, maid and siblings yang boleh bersabar jaga n sayang golongan2 kurang upaya ni...yg pastinya pahalanya xterbayang kn...=)

"Allah pilih pakcik sbb Dia tau pakcik sabar n pahala yg xthingga tggu pakcik di akhirat nnt,insyaALLAH'

(^_^)

pakcik tu ckp lg...

"jadi doctor ni,hanya ade 2...samaada kamu mengubati @ kamu membunuh..."

oh...byknye tanggungjawab..nk tuka course pon,da 4th year ni!hehe...tu pon, if you dare lala...=P

sbb tu sy suke jadi budak kecik...xde tanggungjawab nk pikul...hihi!but life must go on...mesti dtempuhi jugak sbb dunia xkan berputar ke belakang...

slamat menempuhi hidup yang penuh dgn dugaan dengan senyuman...(^_____________^)

pelangi....

2010-03-05T03:51:00.000-08:00

assalamuallaikum...

kalau sy hepi,sy mesti kene ckp dengan org.....

1st of all...i'm so grateful to the ALMIGHTY coz He always be there and care for me and keep me away from sadness...=)

alhamdulillah,result O&G dah klua, alhamdulillah,alhamdulillah,alhamdulillah...that's all i can say to potray my gratefulness to ALLAH...kerisauan yg teramat akhirnya berakhir dgn pengakhiran yg baik...leganya...rasa nk nanges je pagi td...hehe!

i always believe, Allah turunkan hujan lebat sbb nk timbulkan P.E.L.A.N.G.I yg cantik n indah...alhamdulillah, it happens to me...byk dugaan nak dekat2 exam,masa exam dan jugak lepas exam...sampai kadang2 i did think adekah sy sgt kuat utk hadapi sume ni???sbb sy tahu, Allah hanya uji hambaNya dgn ujian yg mampu dihadapinya...tp, ALLAH tu kan maha adil....at last, sy jumpa one of my 'pelangi' skrg...=)

i enjoy my life now...bermain dgn budak2...senyuman sy makin kerap n lebar skrg!hehe...my equipment now are toys!nice kn...haha~i hope by the end of this posting, apart from gaining medical knowledge, i'll master myself utk bermain dgn kanak2 and communicate with kids...tu kire ilmu kehidupan tu....hehe

that's medical life, life dgn exam n nk cuak menunggu result...

meeting old frens last week of course make me fly high in d sky....only God knows how much i miss them and how happy i am to meet them~ramai dah berubah..ramai sgt2!i mean physically...but in terms on ramah n hati budi, masih tulus n baik mcm dlu...ika still kecik tp bergaya, hazim makin putih n matang, pian n reza dah bergaya n cool, ijat still d same...(kindian)

'lala,sore ko dah brubah la skrg kn'

'mane ade,namapon aku tgh batok skrg...haha'

'stay la ngan sore ni....cool!'

'haha'

most of my fren da keje...mostly engineer and teacher...what a life~sy mcm sgt kagum...da keje dah kawan2 aku ni...da stat handle projek2 besa, da stat mengajar anak org, handle eksperimen kat skola~haha!pdahal zaman skola, sume budak2 nakal...sweet gile!i'm still budak skola...still dgn test, dgn study dan hidup tertumpu kpda belajar..oh,oh,oh....tp sbenanye xnak keje...xnk blaja...but still!xtau nk buat ape...hihi

malam ni nak makan byk2 as hati sgt senang....lalala~~~(^_^)~~~~

rOsBoCOp!^^

2010-02-24T07:38:00.000-08:00

assalamuallaikum...

xde mood nye nk study utk esok...should be dah kat ipoh dah nih!hehe

it's now on d 2nd week posting of paediatrics...everyone keep on mention bout this posting on FB, blog, ym and twitter, maybe sbb best sgt kot!hehe...it's less stress as u'll see cute face in each bed u walk to and examination involves playing,playing and playing...(^__^)

tension sket sbb mggu ni batuk teruk...so,kenela pakai mask bile pegi ward...ntahla nape,ade delusion plak!rs mcm 'i'm ROBOCOP' bile dgn budak2...haha!sometimes i'm scared if they're scared of me...diorang renung muka sy mcm i'm from another planet...agaknya 'sapelah minah pelik ni!'...hihi!sore plak ala2 macho mcm Michael Learns to Rock...nk buat suara ala2 comel pon xlepas!hihihi~moga minggu depan they can start see my face clearly...=)

ramai bising2 rumah yg kami stay skrg ade 'yg mengganggu'...mimi n idot n ika decide to ulang alik dr k.l ke kajang everyday for the class...ntahla, cuak tu mmgla ade, but xpela, berserah ajelah...moga ALLAH permudahkan...ameen...^^ (kami datang nk blaja...huk3)

cuti ni, special sket!as there'll be reunion in pangkor...yeeaaa...alhamdulillah,dapat join!walaupon at 1st mcm xdpt pegi as byk hal jd...some of my frens will stay at my house and hopefully sume berjalan lancar...pakcik dr jepun pon dah balik ipoh, so,follow ajelah...

SMILE,SMilE,sMiLE...(^___^)

xsaba nk jumpa kwn2 lama...to think of d best memories i used to have with them, it feels like, kenapa masa mesti berlalu???hee...

konpius!hii...

2010-02-19T19:22:00.000-08:00

Myspace Bubbles Note Generator

cuba menikmati hidup sepenuhnya...
walaupon life sgt 'mengkonfusekan'...hihi!

sometimes when u give what a person wants in their life, yet it still become a problem, it's so confusing what else u can do to satisfy a person's need...^^

konpius!hii

triad of life...=)

2010-02-14T11:07:00.001-08:00

Assalamuallaikum…

I’d just realize how nice d car’s owner yg saya langgar tempoh hari….

Arini, tgh2 abah drive kat kawasan sawah kat sebuah kampong, tba2 ade motor terlanggar blkang kreta abah…just like me aritu…bezanya,kete abah just calar, but kete yg sy langgar, remuk teruk…dan bezanya….

Pemandu motor dimarah teruk dgn abah n org ramai tapi saya pula siap diberi support lagi oleh d car’s owner and org2 perodua!hahaha….nice lah!mungkin sbb sy nampak sgt2 takut n tketar2 as it was my 1^st accident and hope will b d last one…thank you so much incik….incik…..X INGAT!hehe…so,bukan sentiasanya nasib sy selalu xbaik kn??hee

And now I realize I had so many responsibilities to be fulfilled…makin byk dugaan yg anda hadapi, bertambah2 tanggungjawab yg harus kita pikul…kalau dlu, byk hal sy rely on others,But now I need to do it myself….uruskan diri sendiri n uruskan org lain…mungkin xde @ kurang masa lagi nk fikir hal2 yg xberkaitan…sometimes, rasa cemburu dgn org2 yg masih ade masa berfikir hal2 remeh…

Semakin dewasa, semakin byk tanggungjawab, semakin matang….nice triad!hee…ape2pon, setiap yg terjadi, positive or negative things, kita sbg manusia, cube2lah ambil iktibar dan memperbaiki diri dan keadaan sekeliling…

Oh!it’s just ramblings d masa2 'kepenatan' melampau…hii!

moga semuanya menjadi semakin baik...ameen~

I.M.A.N + S.T.R.O.N.G + S.M.I.L.E = everyone’s wish!

(^_^)

o.v.e.r....^^

2010-02-10T21:19:00.000-08:00

assalamuallaikum....

i feel relieve as d exam is just over...alhamdulillah...menandakan posting busy pon berakhir...(^_^)

ntahla nk describe on my performance this time...ade o.k,ade k.o...bak kate mak, kita mencuba yg terbaik, selebihnya berserah padaNYA...betul tu!so,xnak runsing2 sgt...cuma ALLAH sgt2 membantu sy kali ni...examiner yg baik,kes yang baik...cumanya,mungkin short case nak detect position baby td...which mmg undetected d pole sume!mmg gabra...mungkin twin pregnancy...susah tu!but i'd tried my best to answer d question and act cool...xtaula cmne...moga sume ok2 je...

betulla,ALLAH lebih tau ape yg tbaik utk kita...sy menangis bile dpt tau i'll get gynae case for my long case as i just have 1 week exposure to that ward and no teaching on gynae...mestilah cuak!i think it's not fair for me...but luckily.....i'd got obs case in gynae ward and my examiner was my own supervisor...my prof!alhamdulillah...^^

dlm sume exam, mesti sume pon sy cuak tahap dewi! tapi kali ni, berpeluh2 mcm hujan...siap akak for my long case ckp

"berpeluh2 adik jawab soalan ye"

hahaha...cuak tau x~huhu...

apepon,sume da over...

JOM START posting PAEDEATRIC~~hello kids...(nak kua g cari barang2 mainan...hihi)

mesti rindu dgn sume lecturer O&G yg sgt2 care...mcm ayah n ibu!!!thanks lecturers...=)

langit tak selalunya cerah

2010-01-30T23:34:00.000-08:00

assalamuallaikum...

just nak tergelak dgn kebodohan diri sendiri...

byk sgt benda yg sy xtau psl kereta...nasibla lepas isi minyak kreta!hii...sy mmg xreti nk isi angin kat taya...walaupon it looks simple, sy mmg xtau...but yesterday, sy mmg decide nak blaja isi sendiri instead of suruh pkerja pam minyak tlg isikan...

mmg terkial2...nk cari lubang pon xjumpe2...tiba2 dtg satu moto tggu blkg kreta sy nk isi angin jugak...sy masukkan angin tu,but tertendang klua balik...(ooo...maybe taya da penuh angin...so,xperlu isi la...)

me: sy dah sudah pakcik

pakcik: (muka confuse) kamu da abes isi??betul ni??

me: betul...dah..=)

pakcik: sbenarnya, kamu reti ke x isi angin kat taya ni??

me: ah??ummmm....sbenanye sy xretiiiiiiii....=( asek tertendang je angin tu...mybe dah penuh kot angin taya sy ni

pakcik: xpe2,kamu bukak sume lubang taya2 kamu,bia pakcik tlg isi kn...sbenarnya,salah cara kamu isi tu...die kene bunyi kat meter tu dlu,barula angin penuh...xpe2,bia pakcik tlg

me: yeke...(maluuunye!) baik pakcik...trima kaseh byk2...

maluuunya dgn kebodohan diri!hehe...tp alhamdulillah,dalam susah, ade org dtg bantu...syukur sgt2...kalau x,mungkin sy akan drive dlm keadaan taya yg looks xde angin...

drive smlm,sgt mencabar as hujan sgt2 lebat spnjg jalan!!!i did think i'm gonna end up with an accident as my eyes cant see very well...every car starts to turn on d emergency light...only prayers and tawakal accompany me....and alhamdulillah, i arrived safely...i'll try to avoid driving at night...it's horrible...spec no longer help much...power silau makin bertambah i guess...ditambah dgn trend kereta2 skrg,letak lampu putih!oh,it irritates my eyes...really!

everything change....even ur own organ...starts to deteriorates by time...

that's life!

~smile~

(^_^)

bad comes with good...insyaALLAH

2010-01-28T08:23:00.000-08:00

assalamuallaikum...

ohhh.....i'm fully stress out today!!

it's a real2 full day since early morning until now actually...where i walk out from d ward at around 11 pm today...mak nenek!penat2...

byk betul bende came out today...ade tego, muke mcm sy sememeh jugakla arini...early morning,baju kesayangan terbakar, and kat kelas sy nk kene atur byk benda and nk pk byk hal...sume nak arini,lecturer berebut masa kelas, student ade time constrain...xpela, try d best to deal with all those things....and esok pulak kene prepare case!aaaa...sume datang skaligus!!saba2....

bukan merungut...just as normal human, ade gakla rasa tension tu kn...hee

td, i went to d gynae ward to find a case...tgh2 bukak case note patient, sy terjatuhkan case note lain jugak...xsengaja,betul!...and suddenly, nurse marah2 n muke xpuas ati gile...

nurse: aii!boleh jatuh pulak!itu pon blh jatuh ke!kalau koyak....siap!!!(dgn muka sinis)

me: sy minta maaf (kutip balik ape yg jatuh bertabur tu)

and tgh2 kutip, tba2 ade kaki berselipar depan sy...

person: itu buku siapa??

me: (nk kene marah lg ke ni...xkan patient pon nk marah aku...ni yg nk nangis ni!) aaa...ini buku ****

person: eii nurse, ini buku akak sy!semalam ckp xdak! u semalam marah2 sy cakap sy yg simpan ini buku, ini buku tgk, ada sama u.....

me: (terpinga2)

nurse: yala2...sy silap...tba2 buku ini ada arini,mana sy tau...

person: itula,lain kali cek la dulu!

nurse: boleh pulak terjumpa buku patient bila barang jatuh

me: tula...nasib sy bg jatuh buku2 ni, ade jugak hikmahnya

nurse: (muka malu2)

even with bad things happen, there will always comes good things with it...

and sometimes we cant even see, what's hiding behind every single things that happen to us...

so, as a human, just live with it and try to take whatever happens to u, positively!

(^__^)

chaiyok2!!!

i'm trying to be more serious as the exam is just around d corner...may ALLAH leads d way...ameen

a young girl with ovarian cancer

2010-01-20T02:45:00.000-08:00

assalamuallaikum...

i was stunted!

arini tibe2 demam n sgt2 xlarat...nasib xde kelas,kalau x,xpasal2 kene cari MC...hii!but dah name pon posting O&G, rs bersalah ngan diri sndri bile x g ward....so,ptgnya,sy kuatkan semangat pegi jugak ward at least clerk 1 kes pon jdla lala!!!haha...chaiyok2...=)

berjalan2 kat gynae ward...ramai patient! patient lama mostly patient cancer...(commonly cancer ovary, endometrial and cervix) tp tup2,nmpak patient baru kat cubicle cancer...mudanya! tu la yg came across my mind at first!even younger than me,i'm sure...hmm...mybe bed xcukup kot, sbb tu tlepas kat cubicle ni...but still,nk gak tgk case ape...

a 20 years old girl having ovarian cancer, just have surgery to remove her ovary and now come for chemotherapy...

tujuan utama sy ke ward, nak blaja ttg penyakit...but today, i decided to know more about LIFE...we had a chatting for about 1 hour...berTIGA--sy, that girl and her mom! i can see, wajah sedih n risau si ibu...and bile sy pandang wajah si pesakit, she tried to calm everyone by acting 'i'm oklah'! arini will be the 1st chemo for her...kalau tnya sy, tentu je sy xtau ape rsa chemo tu...xpenah rasa....but as far as i know, it's painful and terrible...

"kak, kenape chemo tu diorang tutp dgn kain hitam??"

"oh,sbb xnk bg kene cahaya matahari...nnt effect die xbagus sgt"

"kak,kenape nurse tu pakai sarung tangan untuk handle chemo bag tu?"

"ummm.....eh,awak xnak makan ke????"

------d real answer, sbb kalau ubat chemo tu kene tangan, sgt sakit...sbb tu kene pakai glove tebal nk handle ubat chemo...bygkan kalau ubat ni masok dlm badan.....sy xsampai hati nk cakap........='(-------

saya tunggu same2 dgn patient and her mom sampai last step masok chemo...sy xdpt ckp pape sbb sy rs sedih...muda2, dah ade cancer...dah kene jalani proses menyakitkan,,,,surgery n chemo...bila pandang muka ibu, sy dapat nampak peritnye....mcm kalau die blh gantikan tempat anaknya,she will....

"kalau awak rs nak muntah, muntah je...jangan tahan2"

"kalau sy nak tahan??"

"janganla macam tu....nnt lagi sakit...pape rasa lain je,bgtau nurse ye...panggil je kami"

"kalau sy boleh tolerate, xpe kn kalau sy xckp??"

she's trying to be strong...i know...and once d chemo masok....wajah die da mula brubah and cepat2 die pasang earphone and pejam mata rapat2....sy tau,die dah mula rasa sakit........and i need to go.....insyaALLAH sy akan dtg melawat lagi esok....

"ALLAH xkan menguji hambaNya dengan ujian yg xmampu die tanggung...Dia lebih memahami hamba2Nya..."

krriiingggg3....---prof call...hadoooi...masa utk study!hee....

common sense related with public!

2010-01-15T10:53:00.000-08:00

assalamuallaikum...

this post is about some common sense in LIFE...

arini saya balik ipoh naik bas...nasib dapat sit sorang, bukan xsuke berkongsi, cuma privacy lebih skit bila dah sit sorang ni!hehe...kali ni, sy sgt2 xslesa dari pandangan mata, telinga n pikiran! sit couple sebelah ni, satu pasangan rupa cm budak skola yg langsung xsegan silu buat bnda2 x manis sebelah sy!!!sakitnye hati...haih~ mmg betulla, zaman skrg ni, kalau xsuke, "ade aku kesah??ko buat keje ko,aku buat keje aku..." yela2...sy faham....but, xde ke sdikit rasa malu dgn org ramai??? mak sy ckp---kalau malu,org xbuat bnda xsenonoh...betul juge!hee...

--kalau ye pon nk tunjukkan rs cinta, xperlu buat depan2 org blh?? igt Allah n mak bapak kat rumah tu--

minggu ni sy sibuk sgt...nk arrange kelas ngan doc, nk layan krenah budak2 group, nk pk study, nk pk diet...muahaha! so, balik bilik mesti lewat...aleh2, masok toilet........sungguh menyakitkan mata,hati n idung...

x flush satu hal, tisu penuh dlm lubang toilet tu! x ke pk, boleh tersumbat?? xke pk, 'harta karun' tu malu bile dilihat org n induce sumpah seranah org lain?? mak sy ckp lg----kucing die kambus najis die sbb die malu ngan harimau~kucing pon tau malu kn??
ni baru 1 senario...kat public toilet mestila lg saba ajelah kn...mcm kalau da xtahan tahap kronik baru masok kot!haha...

----saya sgt2 kesian dgn makcik tukang cuci...bygkan tu adelah mak @ kakak anda...mcm mane??----

okla.....stop dgn kurang berpuas ati dgn sikap manusia nih...finally, sy balik ipoh...(^______^) masok2 bilik, caaaaa.....ade kad atas katil!hehe...as always, my parents akan kasi kad birthday...tp kali ni, sy prasan, kad sy da xde katun2 lagi...kini, berbunga2...waa~sgt perempuan n matang!hahaha... :))

utk yg akan ambil exam: GUDLUCK!!

wassalam...

my best day...^__^

2010-01-09T11:43:00.000-08:00

assalamuallaikum...

this post is just to portray my sweetest memory for d start of my NEW age

thanks 4 all d wishes kali ni...through phone call,sms,fb n whatsoever lah...appreaciate it very2 much...(^__^)

abah: anak abah ni dah besar dah ni...nnt abah bagi adiah besaaa punya kat lala!

mak: moga lala jadi matang taun ni...dont act like a small kid lagi dah ok!haha

shida: kami syg kamu sgt2 budak gemok...^^

----i love them + nani-----

sy sgt2 terharu...shida turun dr bagan dato to k.l just to celebrate our birtday together...i still remember,those days when we're kids, mak n abah always celebrate our birthday on 9th january as to be fair with me (8 jan) and shida (10 jan).....and this year, we independently cherish ourselves together in our own way...ouwh!it's nice...it's too nice!!!!!!

---thanks shida....for d best day u'd gave me...^_______^ HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

sy kurang suke dgn kejutan....but kejutan bee sgt2 buat sy terharu....sweet sgt2~BEE-org yg xblh tgk sy sedih...sentiasa nk tgk sy senyum n happy...thanks 4 everything...srrooooottt3....=)

wish sy.........moga doa2 sy dimakbul ALLAH...doakan sy k! (^__^)

kn dah ckp,xde isi pon post kali ni...just luahan rs suke yg bergembur2 mcm tanah poros!!!!!!!!hehe...

senyum selalu!!!!!!!!!!^__^
slamat malam...~.~

antara merasa dan memahami...

2009-12-29T08:32:00.000-08:00

assalamuallaikum...

pernah x denga....bile si istri mengandung, tp suami pulak yg alami symptoms2 ibu mengandung mcm muntah2, loya, mengidam, x'sedap' perut la...haha

istri: akak rilex je, suami akak yang teruk bila akak mengandung..loya2, muntah2 and mengidam lebih dari akak pulak!haha...

i'd came across this problem before...dulu pk, xmungkinla...or mungkin sbb suami tu mengada2, buat2 etc...

tp sbenanye, memang ada masalah ni dlm medic pon...in medical term, we call it 'COUVADE SYNDROME'...okla,pada sape yg dah tau, sy baru tau arini je...hihi!=P

hmm...sebab ape ia jadi, mmg xde specific reason...tp dpercayai, hal ni jadi sebab ade strong bonding btween both husband n wife...waa~~cute!orang ckp, berat sama dipikul, ringan sama dijinjing...hehe!anak sama dikandung, senang susah sama dirasa...(memandai je!hehe)--->doa2 moga bile dah kawin nnt ade strong bonding gak ngan suami!hihihihi...=P

sbenanye, bagus jugak bila both husband n wife rasa susahnye bila mengandung ni...moga timbul rasa insaf di hati masing2...bukan ape, sepanjang kat bilik bersalin, mcm2 gelagat lelaki sy jumpa...ade yang bila si istri mengadu sakit nak bersalin, suami pulak 'alah,kuatkan semangat tu...tahanla sikit!' (sambil muka berpaling sambil lewa dari istri) ----grrr...

dalam bilik bersalin, bila sy tgk ibu2 berperang nyawa nak deliver sorang anak, memang perit je tgk...bila nurse cakap PUSHHHH....!!!! sbg sorang prempuan, rasa cm nk tlg push jugak je...muka masing2 yang melihat ni, muka push jugak!haha...

sbenarnya,,,,jika kita xdapat merasai kesakitan seseorang, sekurang2nya kita perlu cuba memahami...

bagusnya...

(^__^)

a life...to be save~

2009-12-11T06:46:00.000-08:00

assalamuallaikum...

finally i have time to be spend for myself...tu pon after on call~haha...O&G is tough!oh...oh...oh...xpe, dimana ada kesusahan, di situ ada juga kesenangan...insyaAllah~

semalam, 1st time pegi ward as actually this 2 weeks we just spend in lecture hall for the lectures by d scary superb lecturers...hehe! but saje nk g ward, for early exposures...nk tanya history xtau sgt....so,nyembang n kacau baby org jela keje!hehe

slekeh la doctor ni!haha

for the 1st day in ward, i realize many thing...slh satunya ~~

ibu: awak ambil sajalah anak sy ini...

lala: eh,sy ni dahla dok asrama, bujang plak tu...pegang baby pon terkial2...haha!kenapa ni kak....?

ibu: sy ngak ada duit nk jaga baby ini...sy cuma mahu masa depan anak saya terjamin...suami saya pemarah dan suka pukul2...tlglah, siapa2 yg mahu anak bilang sama saya...

lala: hmm...baikla kak...byk2 bersabar la kak...

(sambil tgk baby yg comel, baik n xkuat meragam ni...haih~kesianla...)

hmm...kita selalu xsedar...dalam2 kita bermewah2, makan sedap2, ada ramai lg d luar yg miskin kelaparan...regardless from where they come from, what race they are, they are still human...ibu yg nak berpisah dgn anak, tentunya susah...tp dalam keadaan terdesak n mahukan kehidupan yg lebih baik utk anaknya, si ibu sanggup berkorban...suaminya pulak.....ntahla~masing2 dah besar, fikirla sendiri...

if u dont have time to think about urself, just at least take few seconds to think about others...

dunia...dunia....

utk kwn sy yang baru beli kete 'cun' tu, ape kate ko amik baby ni???beri sumbangan pada masyarakat...hehe=P

pandai budak2 skrg...

2009-12-03T00:52:00.000-08:00

assalamuallaikum...

alhamdulillah, Raya Aidiladha ni dptla cuti seminggu utk cuti sem..hihi!busy sem lepas, but sem depan sy pasti akan lebih busy...posting O&G and paeds...tough tuh!adess...hii

anas: ooo...angah dapat 5A suma org bg dia 50rggt, yang anas ni dok dapat no 1 dari anas tadika xdak sapa pon bg anas apa2...kalau macam ni, periksa lepaih ni anas nak bagi dapat no last!

(sambil menyorok dalam kusyen merajok!)--->hahaha

anas

ni la gelagat sepupu kesayangan saya, darjah 3!hehe...abang baru dpat 5A utk UPSR...alhamdulillah,syukur sgt2!!sbb keluarga sy ramai dah besa2, so budak2 kecik ni dapat perhatian lebih...km 1 family tertunggu2 result UPSR shafik (abg anas)

bbrpa arini lepas, sy balik kampung kedah...shafik kalut buat preparation nak interview skolah asrama!wahhh...kecik2 kene interview...maklang sy bleter2

maklang: la ni, 5A dah xlaku dah!depa nak ambik d best among d best...ni esok ni, siap ada ujian fizikal lagi nih!mak lang xtaula...bukan skola dia ja, skola Badlishah tu pon ada interview!MRSM pon...

lala:uihh...dlu lala main masok je skola badlishah tu! MRSM pon nasibla xdak interview dlu...kalau x,sah2 xdapat...haha!

waa...tgkla,betapa ramainya budak2 pandai skrg smp dah jd lambakan...5A UPSR pon dah xlaku la ni....dah ramai sgt...bygkanla,interview turn sepupu sy tu, yg datang hampir 300 lebih,tp yg nak just 24 org??? and jumlah sbenar yg memohon adelah 20000 and yg dperlukan just 100 org...gile lah! nasibla sepupu sy lelaki n ahli sukan...harap2 dapatla tu...

zaman skrg,jd llki mmg bonus...

cikgu: kalau anak puan ni lelaki, 3 A pon kami ambik...tp masalahnya anak puan ni perempuan,ssh sikit

(d satu skola yg lain)

perempuan skrg ramai yg pandai2...(no offence)...so, dsebabkan nak balance balik ratio pelajar lelaki n perempuan dan golongan2 profesional bila budak2 ni dah besa nnt, terpaksala proses yang org kate 'berat sbelah' ni diamalkan...mmg kelihatannye x adil, but that's d reality...

bagi sy, semua pon berlandaskan takdir...kalau dah tertulis kite ke asrama, ke asrama la kite...kalau x, kat skola biasa pon best ape!!!satu2nya sbb sy trima tawaran mrsm dlu just sbb sy xsanggup naik bas skola yg gile2 sesak n penuh dgn budak2 nakal...haha!senang je alasan nk masok asrama...bkn sbb nak lagi cemerlang pon...haha!kawan2 yg sama2 di U skrg pon,ramai dr skolah harian biasa...boleh je berjaya...sume ni atas diri masing2...kalau usaha,insyaAllah berjaya...insyaAllah...

Hitam Putih Masa Depan

2009-11-26T10:31:00.000-08:00

tengah2 buat keje d malam raye, tiba2 terdengar lagu ni...sesuai la utk org yang hadapi masalah...(ade ke org xde masalah??hee...)

Lihatlah sekitar alam

Dunia luas terbentang

Langit tinggi kebiruan

Pohon-pohon kehijauan

Hembusan bayu yang menyegarkan

Dengarkan di sana-sini

Beburung riang menyanyi

Berbunga aneka warna

Sumber kedamaian jiwa

Mensyukuri nikmat Maha Esa

Begitu berharga kehidupan ini
Bagi mereka yang tahu menghargai

Mengapa terdorong oleh perasaan

Kalau turutkan hati diri menjadi korban

Tiada yang dapat lari dari masalah diri

Hadapi lah dengan tenang

Tiap cabaran yang datang

Atasinya dengan keimanan

Sekadar buat renungan

Untukmu teman tersayang

Hitam putih masa depan

Sendirian menentukan

Hidup ini usah persiakan

insyaAllah...(^__^)

sonang yo cogah~^^

2009-11-21T23:34:00.001-08:00

Assalamuallaikum…

Alhamdulillah da sampai damai~~xde tempat sedamai damai~~ehehehe…=P

Semalam, berakhir la program ‘intervention day’ kami yg bertemakan ‘sonang yo cogah’…Alhamdulillah sume smooth n mengikut flow…dan kaunter yang sy jaga adalah kaunter kondom…ok2, I admit, it’s a bit taboo when a girl like me need to tell the public about condom, tp tu namenye…TANGGUNGJAWAB…hee!A guy and a girl need to be there as d promotion didn’t limited to only guys…and I never expect the really positive reaction from the villagers towards my booth~ngee

Sepanjang mengendalikan booth kondom and assist my fren to do the demonstration wearing it, some pendapat from makcik2 and pakcik2 had been thrown

‘kondom ni mmg la baik, tp, sesuai untuk org2 muda yang xkawin, tp gatal! Org tua xsesuai nye lagi ah~ macam mana la nak mencegah maksiat kalau kerajaan bagi kondom free pulak kat semua org???

Hmm..yea~I admit…pemberian kondom percuma kat kebanyakkan klinik kesihatan @ klinik desa mmg jadi isu pada org ramai…sama jugak dgn bagi jarum percuma kat penagih dadah...

‘bagi jarum lagi, memang nak galakkan org menagih la kerajaan ni!’

Ok…tapi, cuba kita pandang secara reality nya pulak…kalau org ramai takut dgn penyebaran HIV/AIDS daripada hubungan seks dan perkongsian jarum ni, agak2, org nak ke buat seks rambang, isap dadah n kongsi jarum??agak2, masih ade ke pelacur2 yang mlepak2 kat bangunan2 tunggu pelanggan?? Dan golongan2 penagih dan ‘org gatal’ ni selalunya ekonomi diri sendiri rendah….

Tindakan ni mcm kisah telur ayam and ibu ayam…sape klua dlu???telur ayam ke ibu ayam???hee

Kalau kondom dan jarum x dberikan secara percuma, ramai pulak rakyat msia ade HIV/AIDS and ramai pulak anak2 luar nikah lahir…tapi, kalau diberikan secara meluas, golongan ni rasa ‘wah, senang la aku lepas ni’…antara nk cegah atau nak galakkan…hmm

Tapi, yang sbenarnya, kesedaran tu yang paling penting…zaman sekarang, sape xtau HIV/AIDS n sape xtau hubungan seks produce anak???tp, kesedaran dalam diri kurang or mybe xde langsung…ikut nafsu je…denial..’ish, x kot kene kat aku~’

And mungkin kesedaran makin meningkat….ramai gile kanak2 10-13 tahun dtg buat muke toye kat booth saya...

‘akak, kondom tu ape?? Nak tahu…

‘aaa…kondom tu~untuk org dah besa2…nak cegah HIV and kalau xnak anak, org pakai kondom la……aaa~adik pegi yang demo basuh tangan tu eh, sini akak demo utk org2 besa je…(-_-)’”

Adoi~~hee

Jadi, sonang yo cogah, pakai yo kondom…(^^,) tp, paling penting amalkan cara hidup sihat tanpa dadah dan setia pd pasangan…insyaAllah~

wassalam...

ALLAH knows...

2009-11-07T17:05:00.000-08:00

assalamuallaikum...

bee ckp:

"my dear lala~when you feel all alone in this world and there's nobody to count your tears,just remember, no matter where you are,Allah knows...or when you carrying a monster load and you wonder how far you can go, with every step on that road that you take...Allah knows..."

 yeah...Allah knows...

i'm so tired caught in this kind of situation and sometimes it's unbearable...

tapi,sy teringat...kenapa Allah nk uji kita??

sebab...

Utk menguji n menilai tahap iman kita
Utk membuka mata n hati kita yg tertutup sebelum ini
Dan pastinya utk memberikan sesuatu yg lebih baik dr terdahulu jika kita redha...

i always wanna say everything inside because i dont want it to be worse in other day...

but when i turn on to be silent, it's obvious that....sometimes it's unbearable until there's nothing i can say anymore~

but, anything happen...do remember~

ALLAH KNOWS...^_^

i.N.d.E.p.E.n.D.e.N.t.

2009-10-31T03:40:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

kamu sangat manja LALA!wake up...wake up...

arini sume kua dating...senyap sunyi 1 blok!haha...so,tinggal la sy sorang2 dgn laptop tcinta ni!dgn keje yg blh tahan byk...tp,still mbuang masa dgn tenet!mbaca tanpa gangguan kelembapan internet...hee~esok da nk balik pilah n start d same routine again....haih!

petang i decided to go out...nk g kedai mustika ratu, baya bill maxis, nak makan byk2 n nk tenangkan fikiran...i realize that i need to walk alone in quite a far distance from my hostel...bout 3km !i's quite a weird feeling sket, especially for those places i used to drive to reach there n now i have to walk utk ke sana...mula2 rs penat, takot yela,byk PATI and peragut kat area sini...but, sy tringat n pujuk diri sy...dulu,bila xde kemudahan, sy boleh je berjalan jauh smbil bwa barang2 berat, bertukar2 bas, berdiri lama dlm bas, layan kerenah2 manusia di jalan n dalam bas...sume tu xjadi masalah pon, malah sy enjoy gile jalan2 naik bas!tambah2 kalau dpt tempat duduk la kn...hii!tringat masa stat clinical posting where byk gile buku nk beli n kami tinggal di serdang...so,need to travel to k.l from serdang utk beli buku2 tebal2 cm 'kumar n clerk'...berbondong2 berat, jalan dlm hujan dan bila balik,penat mcm nk gile...tp,sy, miza, ira n ipah ok je masa tu!sbb tau,kalau merungut pon xguna...but skrg, sy xsuka dgn diri sy yg manja n dependent!mungkin ade hikmah jugak kete accident and masok perodua sbulan...sy rindu zaman2 sy perlu bersusah payah utk sesuatu...zaman yg sy xperlu tumpukan perhatian utk memandu, xperlu pk jam ke x, boleh tdo lena dlm bas...i miss my good old days^^

adakalanya, kita perlu mmandang pd keadaan yg di bawah kita, yg lebih teruk dan susah dr kita supaya wujud rasa syukur pd nikmat Allah...(^__^) ----> peringatan utk diri sy sendiri n anda juga

pejalan kaki contohnya patot bsyukur Allah kurniakan sepasang kaki yg kuat mbawa diri kita kemana2 dibandingkan dgn org yg tiada kaki...terpaksa berkerusi roda dan pergerakan terbatas...

sampai di Maju junction nk baya bill, tba2 seorang lelaki muda tahan saya!

"adik,abg minta tlg bg abg RM1.50...abg xcukup duit nk bayar tiket komuter"

"owh...ni bang"

"ADIK!!!"

tba2 sy nampak sorang polis blari laju kearah sy n llki td terus rampas duit d tangan sy dan lari...

ape ni???sy buat salah ape???blurr gile sorang2...huk3

"kenapa adik bg duit??"

"kenapa incik??"

"dia dah mintak duit kat semua org,dah byk dah duit die dapat...abg baru nk tahan!"

"oyeke...hmm,xpela,rezeki die kot"

"lain kali xpayah bg!"

haih...mcm2 kn...xpela,mungkin die nk bg makan anak2 die ke, dia sendiri nk beli makanan ke...mmg dah tertulis RM1.50 sy tu adelah rezeki org lain...^^,

tpkan,tkilan sket dgn maxis yg sengal ayam ni!!xpela,xpela....

rs bahagia makan dgn byknya!!!haha...walaupon sorang2, xpela...^_^ sy tetap enjoy!hee...

juasseh mcm memanggil2...siap masok dlm mimpi lg!melampau.....haissshhh!!!haha

Wasssalam...

(^__^)

patience is bitter, but its fruits is sweeter

2009-10-30T11:32:00.000-07:00

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pengasih, Maha Penyayang.

"Bukankah Kami telah lapangkan dadamu (Muhammad)? Dan Kami pun telah menurunkan beban darimu Yang memberatkan belakangmu. Dan Kami tinggikan sebutan (nama)mu bagimu. Maka sesungguhnya bersama kesulitan ada kemudahan. Sesungguhnya bersama kesulitan ada kemudahan Maka apabila engkau telah selesai (dari sesuatu urusan), tetaplah berkerja keras (untuk urusan yang lain) dan hanya kepada Tuhanmulah engkau berharap."

it's just....

2009-10-28T11:21:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

NEGERI SEMBILAN

td balik dr makan malam kat pekan kuala pilah...dlm pjalanan tu,nampak ade majlis besar kat stadium..."jamuan dan sesi bersama rakyat"!waa...makan free!hehe...tp bak kata pakcik van "baikla korang makan bbaya sbb nak dpt turn makan pon ntah2 sejam!" hehe...

1st time, sy makan d kawasan laluan antara kedai...it's like chinese stall style, but kat pilah, semua melayu...NICE!even just gerai2 kecil,but there're variety of foods and d taste is not bad at all!^^, i can see,byk org2 seems to wait for something...menunggu kat tepi2 kedai mcm ade event je...and suddenly berpusu2 org pegi ke jalan utama...mlayu,cina,india!ade yg just pakai baju 'kelawar', mengendong anak2 kecik sumenye BERAMAI2 pegi ke arah jalan raya utama!and barula sy tau....RAJA BARU dtg tgk rakyat!nice nye....ade kete kuda,ade org silat,ade marhaban aladdin, n yg penting ade raja n permaisuri bsame2 anaknye...hehe!'raja berjiwa rakyat!' hehehe...

ok,come to a different issue...ape anda fikir tentang tindakan lelaki masok surau perempuan saje2 without any good reason???
sy xpenah pulak come across this problems before...but i'm quite surprise it happen here in pilah when i'm all alone in d surau waiting for azan zohor...suddenly a guy masok surau tu n berlegar2 dlm surau...aik???sy sgt2 tkejut,only GOD knows...at first, sy igt sy yg salah masuk surau...but tu bukan kali pertama n kali trakhir sbb selang 10 minit, dia dtg lagi...esoknya jd benda yg sama dgn lelaki yg bbeza plak!xlangsung hiraukan aurat makcik2 n akak2 n adik2 yg dlm tu...main masok je!sy sgt2 geram la...bg sy, if even ade benda penting skali pon,bwala teman @ mungkin ckp sbelom masok...main serbu je n mata xreti jaga!it's not that the girl duduk d public, tp dalam surau, so mybe perlu ada rs segan n hormat la...n, pemilihan masa nk masuk tu, elok2 je dekat2 masok waktu n during peak time masa org nk perform solat...does it really make sense???haih...dunia skrg, even kat rumah sndiri pon xslamat, ini kan pula kat tempat awam...

even xbanyak benda yg boleh sy buat kat pilah, but byk benda yg dapat sy observe n get some new experiences here! slh satu, bersembang face to face dgn HIV patient yg jd mangsa suami die and she only knows bout that masa buat test darah masa hamil anak ke 2...and now, she needs to take care of her husband yg kene stroke...it makes me realize that it can happen to anyone! n how a person take it, it differs...if benda tu jd pd sy, sy xpasti dapat jd skuat akak ni...that's what i always say to my friend yg Allah tu xkan uji seseorg melebihi kemampuannya...n setiap org tu ujiannya berbeza2 kn...

i miss AGU very much...sob3..

that's all...thanks 4 reading!salam

"....u will realize that little imperfection makes it perfect u" -----> rosila like this quote n d video!^^,

the time keeps on moving...

2009-10-16T07:10:00.000-07:00

me,an nee,zizi,wani,keong

assalamuallaikum...

family medicine telah abes dgn jayanya...alhamdulillah!rasa mcm merdeka je...mcm naik year baru je!haha...mybe different exposure which not suits me well...whatever it is, at least i know something about setting in our klinik kesihatan and klinik2 private...before this most of the specialist will said to us

'GP (general practitioner) ni only know to refer patient and not do much to manage them...they just common flu doctors lah'

but i realize that, sbenanye it's not that true...300 patients per day in a klinik kesihatan with little number of doctors managing them, it's not that easy...

'we practice gate keeping role where we ONLY refer the patient when needed"

so, mybe different specialties will see all this from different aspect la kot...lgpon,sume ade kepakaran bbeza kn...the most important is for patient's benefit...pepon,i still miss psychiatry posting!the ward, the patients and the doctors...i miss them!(^_^)

after this, we'll move to KUALA PILAH where we'll be staying in Juasseh which i dont have any idea on that place at all....hehe!but dengar2, it's like a real rural area...

'air sane kotor, jerawat akan tumbuh dgn pesat nya!'

'baik korang bawak byk baldi...air sllu xde..haha'

'kat sane,ade 1 je tempat best...1 kedai runcit!hahaha'

aih!xkesahla...i dont really care bout the place...nasebla!hehe...but...SEBULAN....mcm sgt lama je...huu!malasnye...=P

bak kata doc titi:

"passing this posting is the 2nd thing, but the most important is to learn something"

so,let's see something in a positive way!insyaAllah...

wassalam...

do remember...

2009-10-13T01:55:00.000-07:00

"..jika suatu saat fikiranmu diliputi kekalutan, atau hatimu dibayangi kesedihan, atau keluarga dan hartamu meninggalkanmu, maka jangan skali kali merasa putus asa kerana boleh jadi Allah telah mempersiapkan di sebalik itu kebaikan yg banyak bagimu.."

TAK selamat!

2009-10-08T18:16:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

PELIK!x sangka lah...

yesterday, tgh2 busy buat keje, suddenly ijjato buzz me on ym...

ijjato: cube try bukak link nih...

me:baek!

ijjato: tgk betul2 kat firefox 3

cari punya cari, suddenly i realize, eh my fren's name n her password ade skali dlm that link yg mana beratus2 org lain lg ade dlm tu also together with their password...wah!ape ni kn...any website yg die masok through her computer with a name and passwrd sume ade...jobstreet, facebook, friendster, ym, email...aaa!sume!and when we tried to log in, mmg wujud plak tuh...

sy pon xpasti apekah itu sume...maklumla,buta computer sket!hehe...tp,perasan x, even with user name and PASSWORD, kalau dah computer, kalau dah ciptaan manusia, xde ape yg selamat n private!still remember how my facebook d 'hack' terok smp i decided to inactivate it for a long time...so,if dah tau xselamat, xperlu la letak mende2 private anda di dalam nye...melainkan saje nk buat gempak konon2 private,but nothing inside...also like me!haha...=PP

me: ijat!aku punya ade x???takotnye...

ijjato: aku dah tgk kn aritu, ko n aku pnya xde...

me: alhamdulillah...selamat2!hehe

ijjato: tp xtaula kot2 ada kat laman lain!hahaha

me: ah???

nasihat : rajen2la tuka password anda!(^_^)

lack of....MINYAK!

2009-10-07T03:15:00.000-07:00

have u ever come across this problems??

tgh sedap2 drive sesorang,then suddenly u realize minyak kete dah nk abes!!lampu kat minyak tu menyala2 ntah sejak bila n perjalanan anda kes stesen minyak > 20km!xpe2...abah ckp even kalau lampu menyala2,jauh lagi blh pegi...but,sejauh mane??n i'm not really sure sejak bile lampu tu dah berkelip...haiyooo

apekah tindakan sy??

tutup aircond,bukak tingkap!

tutup radio,menyanyi dlm hati...

bawak slow gile,hati tension tahap gaban!

trasa kete terhangguk2.....masyaAllah!
hati cuak...mane stesen minyak!
saba keteku syg...saba2...

xpe2,lepas ni isi minyak penuh!but suddenly u realize that...eh!aku baru je blanja 86 ringgit dr 100 td to buy something!so,just ade 14 ringgit dlm wallet!how pathetic...xpela....yg penting minyak!!!!!!

kalau kete brenti TENGAH2 jalan TENGAH2 jam kat TENGAH2 k.l ni mcm mane???no joke,i'm scared...no one is with me..

tp,Allah tu kan maha pelindung...alhamdulillah sempat sampai...hehe!
ya Allah...brsyukurnya!!=)

eh!baru tersedar.....xmakan lagi since pagi~~just minum slurpee je!adoiii...hee...jom pegi makan!hehe

(^_^)

itu saje!
take care...^^
wassalam...

beautiful heart......

2009-10-03T07:30:00.000-07:00

an elderly woman, a beautiful woman, bed-ridden....can't respond at all when her name been called, been feed using feeding tube and wearing urinary catheter to pass urine for almost a year!

uncle:

i know her since we are form 6...we're in the same class that time...the 1st love still remains until now....i hope i can take care of her for the rest of my life...

i believe, if i were in her condition right now,she will do the same thing...

we enjoy every single thing we did before and when the difficult time comes, i still enjoy what i did for her even though she can't respond back but as long as i can lessen her burden, it's more than enough and i wont leave her...

i dont want to let her go, but as everything wasn't permanent, and i know she's suffer with the pain, i'll pray for her best...

hmm...actually, that uncle was my patient's husband, my home visit patient!the beautiful woman was a lung cancer patient which goes into metastasize phase to the brain and her spine...dont have to tell more bout her, u can imagine by yourself bout the severity of her deterioration

yes!the husband really take care of her...kalau x ckp pon dah tau! i dont really care about about those saying of "oh,my boyfriend do this to me,buy me this,always care for me" ...but to know and see those sacrifices of husband @ wife, it touches my heart! kan bagus kalau sume cmni...xdela kes2 cerai2 ni kn...^^

take care!wassalam

the FEELINGs and the QUESTIONs

2009-09-16T09:26:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

sy mmg sedang semangat raya!!^^

it's now towards d end of Ramadhan n d beginning of Syawal...percampuran perasaan berlaku di sini!antara sedih meninggalkan Ramadhan dan gembira menyambut Syawal~tp,yg datang tu kan akan pergi??and it will be replace by joy of something else...^_^

still remember those years, how excited i am to celebrate hari raya...maybe sbb zaman tu,masih keanak2kan lg...umo skrg dah 22, yeah, i'm getting older, each hour, each day and each year...and childish are now removed with maturity...SLOWLY!hehe...

today, i had an iftar at UPM mosque, which my 1st iftar at mosque this year! quite excited eventhough we cought up in jam for about 2 hours (the real duration is just 30 minutes!) we need to buy KFC kat tepi jalan utk bbuka dalam kreta...nice experiece actually!^^ walaupun tlepas majlis khatam, but we still have d opportunity to break d fast with those kakak2 usrah...ooohhh...sronok rupanya bbuka ramai2 kat masjid!^_^
tiba2 ntah knapa...

knape awak pakai tudung besar?

sbb sy rasa lebih slamat...knape ila?

slamat??ape maksud awak??

oh...cmne eh nk ckp...sy pon baru je pakai...sbelom ni sy mcm sume jugak...

sy nk tau...tp,budak2 ni dah tunggu kat kete...i really need to go...maybe kite crita panjang next time eh??

ok,slamat jalan...drive baik2 tau!

baikk...=)

terangkan diri awak 10 tahun akan datang

sy???hmm....maybe +ve changes??at least some??hehe...with wonderful family and beautiful childrens!hahaha...sy xtahu...

kene tahu sbb lepas raya,present k!

enough with those thought that comes through my mind lately and a sudden question from a person that makes me think, at least something!sbb sy bukan seorang pemikir masa depan...what come,what may...hadoii~~and let the door open for everybody...door for some changes??insyaAllah...

OK

slamat hari raya for all!
moga raye d tepeng meriaahhh!!!tokwan n maktok briya raya taun ni...xsaboo lala nk balekk beraye!!!

and maybe need to refresh my loghat kedah...nanti insyaAllah nak p reunion kat kulim nuhh!haha
but tringat what my pure kedah bestfren said to me baru2 ni.."awat hang dok cakap kedah ni??burok hang tau dak!buat rosak loghat aku ja!"
haha...hampeh!=PP

wassalam...

cELiK vs bUtA...hAti vs MatA

2009-09-08T14:16:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

alhamdulillah dah abes exam...seperti biasa, just berserah sbb sume pon Allah yg tentukan...ketakutan sy, masih sama mcm dlu...chest thightness, shortness of breath and DREAMS! asyik2 mimpi examiner, and the most pathetic, i dream about the case yg di uji dlm clinical exam sy...bak kata mimpi tu " saya ada alcohol induced psychosis!!!"...mungkin tu bukan rezeki, sy just bergelak2 dgn ira ttg mimpi tu,and x further baca pulak psl alcohol...aleh2,masokla pulaakkk...hee!xpela,moga semua kita lulus...ameenn

sy just nk berkongsi cerita ttg ORANG BUTA

minggu lepas, shida datang K.L, so malam tu bawak die jalan2 kat bazar raya area chow kit yg mmg dekat ngan tmpt tinggal sy...kami masok supermarket jap nk beli barang, and suddenly sy nampak sorang org tua, bongkok n nampak sgt pelik! 'lala, plez don't discriminate!"--> hati pandai pjuk...hee

bila nk bayar,barulah sy tahu yg pakcik tu sbenarnya buta...'kesiannye...hmm'

mungkin dah dtakdirkan, km stuck d jalan sempit same2...

"pakcik nk pegi mane?"

"monorail"

"sy ni pelajar kat HKL, n lg sorang kakak sy...xpela,km pon nk pergi monorail, bia sy bwa pakcik"

"trma kasih"

jalan punya jalan, mungkin jalan yg sy bawak bbeza ngan jalan yg sllu die ikot

"kenapa byk sgt melintas?mana monorail? (muka yg sgt takut...)"

"kat depan ni je pakcik...lintas ni,depan tu je..."

and suddenly die xnak gerak! "pakcik jom.." still xnk gerak...

"pakcik,jgn risau,sy x tipu...sy x tipu org buta" (ape punya ayat ni lala???haha)

and slowly die mula berjalan

bila sampai escelator monorail, die nampak sgt legaa

saya terfikir, betapa berisiko jadi org buta, tambah2 kat kota besar cm K.L ni...ramai penipu n yg suka ambil kesempatan walaupun pd org kurang upaya...apeelaa!

Allah jadikan ssetengah org hilang fungsi mana2 part badan dan sstgh lagi, sempurna dari fizikalnya...mestila sbbnye byk, tp sy terfikir setiap penciptaan mesti utk saling melengkapi...bukan yg sempurna menindas yg kurang upaya...kn!

miskin-kaya

buta-celik

tp ape yg jd hari ni, mcm dah terbalik pulak! betapa ramai orang miskin, org buta dipandang jijik, dimarah2, ditipu...mane sense of humanity kita skrg eh??

orang buta, mungkin buta penglihatan, tp celik hati...tp kita yg celik penglihatan,mungkin buta hati....

itu saje... 
selamat beramal!^_^ 

and i just miss my old days with them so much!!

2009-09-08T12:59:00.000-07:00

this post, i dedicate for my bestfriends ever!

noeni

ikha

nazura

saily

zura, lala, ikha, noeni ^_^

hari ni,antara hari paling bmakna dlm hidup sy, sbb dapat kumpul balik geng budak nakal kindi!hehe...5 tahun bpisah...hadoi!

bile crita balik kisah2 lama, it reminds me on how sweet we are in our old days!

bile skrg tgk masing2 dgn prubahan masing2, rasa cm xcaye je!

noeni dah kerja

zura dah merantau ke german

ika cm makin tinggi (sbb high heels!hehe)

and when look on their face someone starting to put on some make up???what?????hahaha...

see???betapa berubahnye kita!!!hehe...

me??still same ok...hehe!(bias!=P)

hope we still can hang out together before salah sorang dr kite kawin...=P 

ehem2!!cepat sket kenduri tu eh makcik...hehe!

I LOVE YOU FRIENDS!^_^

BUDI BAHASA dan kuman!

2009-08-27T07:11:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

hepi,sebab esok nak balik...!!!walaupon exam is just around d corner...tp rindu vs exam, cam rindu menang lagi je!hehe...alhamdulillah,tiket still ada...utk org yg suke buat keputusan last minute cam sy, sgt2la bsyukur bila dipermudahkan cmni...=)

sepanjang perjalanan sorang2 nk ke pudu yang agak penuh dugaan hari ni, sy terfikir lagi...betul ke bulan Ramadhan n puasa ni memelihara kita dr sifat marah dan xsabar??dipendekkan crita...sy rupa2nya tersilap naik bas...walaupun sbenanye bas tu tulis nk ke titiwangsa

pakcik bas: nk pegi mana?
sy: titiwangsa
pakcik bas: 2 rggt
tengah2 nk kluarkan duit,die tekan minyak mengejut!nak terjatuh dah sy ni...saba lala~~aaa!malu!
pakcik bas: nk pegi mana?
sy: titiwangsa
pakcik bas: bas ni pegi gombak la!turun2!
die brenti tiba2 betul2 simpang da nak masuk bulatan pahang yg mana antara bulatan paling jam n sibuk kat K.L...xkan nk turun??kereta lalu lalang!pakcik ni....haih~
sy: xpela pakcik

sy ambil tempat duduk n jd blurr sgt masa tu...sume pandang as pakcik tu marah2...sy jd pelik~aku buta huruf ke baca destinasi bas ni?@ aku punya suara ni slow sgt ke smp die xdenga aku nk pegi titiwangsa??sedih~~~xpela...mungkin die hypoglycemia...xlarat...dan akhirnya sy sesat sendirian ka gombak...=''(( tp alhamdulillah dapat balik...

dah sampai pudu.....panjang sy bratur!bile sampai turn sy,komputer tiket rosak...hadoi...jam dah 1.40...kelas pkul 2...xpela,sempat kot!sy still tersenyum2 kat akak tu smbil mnunggu...pelikla akak ni,apsal masam je??aku yg berdiri,die yg emo??xpela,bia jela...sy tunggu,sampai 1.59!kelasss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!xpela....saba2,kot2 lecturer dtg lambat...

sy: akak,komputer rosak ke? (sambil senyum)
akak: * xjawab (muka makin masam n tiba2 jeling...then pandang budak llki blkang aku, ye adik??nk pegi mana??--->denga senyuman menawan)
sy: (aik??kenapa ni??????????)

sy terfikir lg...mungkin senyuman sy xcukup memikat hati akak td...@ mungkin die rabun n salah interprete ayat sy...tp,sbenarnya,sy sedih sgt...berdiri 30 minit hanya utk tunggu print tiket dengan muka akak yg masam dan akhirnya kelas 1st dlm psychiatry,sy terpaksa ponteng!

kan ke bagus kalau di bulan Ramadhan ni,kita at least bagi sedekah senyuman dan bercakap baik dgn sesama manusia??

pepon,hari ni,sy jumpa kes yg menarik gile! a girl who craving for BLOOD!whoaa....cm cerita vampire kat TV plak kn...haha!tp ni real life ok...whoaa...(^^,)

and a case of bipolar with obsessive compulsive disorder! uncle ni asyik nak basuh tgn je...takot gile dgn kuman! "'kumang' bole mikin mati wooo" haha...nice2!

dah nak exam ni byk pulak kes2 menarik kn...cuak la pulok...hehe

doakan sy!

slamat berpuasa!^^
salam merdeka!!^_^ ---->no more bunga api this year ok!hehe

a step!again...hehe...

2009-08-21T21:09:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

hari pertama puasa...pejam celik,pejam celik, dah puasa balik!cepat betol masa berlalu,umur makin tua, tp iman makin???harap2nya bertambah la kan...^^

setiap bulan mesti ckp ngan diri,taun ni aku nk berubah!tapi saya sendiri pon xpasti tahap perubahan tu...so,bile tiba ramadhan lg, rs malu dgn diri sendiri sebenarnya...perumpamaannya cm amik exam,asyik kene extend2,tp ntah bile blh lulus dgn cemerlang...so,walaupon malu,marila same2 menuju ke arah yg lebih baik...insyaALLAH...^^

sume syaitan diikat, dututup semua pintu neraka tanpa dibuka satu pon dan dibuka pintu syurga seluasnya tanpa ditutup pon...

puasa tahun ni, sy sambut d asrama baru...asrama damai!teringin sgt2 nk balik...sahur same2,g bazar same,bbuka same2 n terawih kat MASJID! tp tula...lala,jgn manja sgt!hehe...1 kekurangan yg amat disini, xde kemudahan masjid utk bjemaah @ even a appropriate space for bejemaah...sedih! tp, xpela...tringat kata2 kwn sy taun lepas, perempuan sebenarnya lebih baik solat d rumah je utk elakkan fitnah...^^ so,memikirkan faktor keselamatan n jarak, alhamdulillah, km bjemaah d bilik je!xde alasan utk x berterawih ok???^^ so,sape dak girl yg nk join terawih n tilawah, MARI2...amat2 dialu2kan!^^

bulan Ramadhan ni bulan mulia...slain memperbanyakkan ibadat, hormat la same bulan ni kn...sy harap sgt pemandangan kat sekitar k.l ni makin baik...i mean dr segi pakaian nya,dan pergaulannya...walaupon mata sy ni da adapt da ngan pemandangan2 ni, tp still i hope for a better change!(^^,) mybe we should move a step for a better change??

smoga RAMADHAN kali ni membawa suatu titik perubahan dlm hidup sy, anda n kita semua...ameenn~^^~

patient saya dah mula MAKAN!oh,it's NICE...(^^,)

2009-08-06T03:30:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum

hari ni,sy super2 hepii!!! v(^_^)v sebabnye........patient case write up saya dah mula makan!!!sy agak down bberapa hari ni bila pergi ward n tgk keadaan die semakin terok...he's such a nice man!muka tulus,baik n sgt kesian...sebab masoknye,kes depression yg melampau...rasa bersalah yg teramat dgn kematian ayah die, coz die xle selamatkan his late father...kesian sy denga crita die...waktu clerking die, ok je...but after few days, he became worse...so much worse than before..non stop amik air smayang n solat x kire tempat,xmakan,xbcakap dgn org n asek melutut mintak maaf,sembah kaki mana2 patient!sedih betol!huhu...even he can't recognize me anymore...but today,alhamdulillah....he's so much better!da makan...km sempat sembang sket n he respond well...alhamdulillah...just,where're his family support???

even sy super2 hepii...hari ni sy n kwn sy super2 takot!!!for the 1st time, a visitor, became psycho towards my fren! he thought she was his WIFE!hadooiii....km pegi mana2 pon die ikot...as he's not a petient, x diawasi pergerakannya, so agak takotla!sampaila km lari ke klinik n masok selamatkan diri dlm bilik doktor...suddenly, dengar bunyi2 barang pecah kat luar klinik! rupa2nya die mengamok nk jumpa my fren...baling handset die etc...takooott!!km tketar2 kat dalam....at last,die pulak yg masok ward!

mmg biasala kat ward if patient ckp nk kawin ngan kita @ kita ni permaisuri diorg...we still consider diorg sakit and alhamdulillah,xe papepon yg jadi...even we still can built a good rapport and relationship with them...tp kes ni,mmg takotla...fobia ngan org baju kuneng!haha=PP

sebab tu, jgn stigma kat patient psychiatry je...kat luar tu, lg ramai org sakit mental yg xsedar @ xmengaku pon sakit diorg tu!n even worse than that, they even discriminate those group without knowing they had such problems too...so,sentiasala berjaga n menjaga diri xkira kat mane pon, tambah2 tepi jalan n perkenalan dlm internet! oh plez...beware!

itu sahaja...have a nice day!(>_<)

luckily i'm adult!=P

2009-08-04T03:49:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

arini,quite busy la...but,alhamdulillah blh handle walaupon tido tsengguk2 kelas petang td!haih~~penat sket!hehe...pagi kelas,then direct g kajang ngan group member for clinic dr bharati...turn sy drive instead of shahriman, d torn among d roses in our group!mmg horrible!haha...

something strike my mind today...bout CHILDREN!

sy trgt zaman2 skola rendah...dr skola sume prempuan sampai ke skola campur!sy tgk macam2 perangai ade!ade yg nakal tlebih, ade yg pasif, ade yg xterurus, ade yg ganas, ade yg pemalu, ade yg sgt lemah dlm pelajaran and bmacam2 lg! waktu tu, bg sy sume normal...utk yg patut rs kesian, mestila kesian! tp yg nakal sgt tu, rs menyampah...APE MOTIF SY CKP PSL NI SUME KN??

semenjak sy masok psychiatry ni, ade tajok CHILDREN PSYCHIATRIC DISORDER...so, sbenanye, mende yg kita sume x amik tau, xamik piki, x amik risau ttg adik2, anak2 sedara, or even anak2 kita nanti is a DISORDER! alhamdulillah, sy bkesempatan bcakap dgn salah seorg pesakit remaja...yg bukan typical kes yg dpat kat ward mcm kes schizophrenia @ bipolar disorder!yg masalah di zman kanak2 affect hidup dia d alam remaja...

bila sesuatu itu adelah penyakit, ia mungkin akan baik dgn sendirinya @ menjadi lebih teruk jika x dirawat...so,sape yg patot dsalahkan dlm kes yg x menerima rawatan??doktor? ibu bapa? cikgu? atau masyarakat??

sini,sy nak kongsi antara sikap2 yg patut kita amik tahu, dan aware.....org perubatan cakap symptoms la...hehe!

kurang tumpuan
hyperaktif
suka bersendirian
degil yg melampau
mencuri
menipu
truancy=ponteng skola
agressive
kejam pada haiwan
suka buat kebakaran...-kecik ke besa (sy pon suke main api dulu~haih!hehe)
terlalu byk bercakap
bercakap dgn anak patung
pergaulan yg mencurigakan

kita selalu bg chance bila budak2 ni melampau...yela,dengan buat muka comel n naive,sape xkesian??haha...tp,kalau sampai da berulang, kenapa xnk jumpa doktor?? hope die akan berubah dengan sendirinya?? atau mnjadi lebih terok d zaman remaja??

peranan ibu bapa n guru2 penting sgt2 pda masa kanak2 ni xtau ape yg tbaik utk mereka...sibuk??oh yeke...

so, kebanyakan remaja hari ni, masalah2 social hari ni, adekah salah mereka 100%??

i LOVE kids...sebab sy juga adelah seorang kanak2 DULU~hehe

stigmatization n discrimination...it's NOT fair!

2009-07-27T05:52:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

minggu ni da minggu kedua psychiaty posting...sgt2 best posting ni, no joke!it's nice...d patient, d ward, d lecturer...we r just like a family!alhamdulillah before start this posting, 6 of us pegi program kat HUKM about stigmatization in some disease dan mmg ajar km yg pesakit mental, wad psychiatry should not be discriminate...the're just human, like us...cuma there're some kind like istimewa than us...so, why should we discriminate??

org luar sllu pk,sape yg refer to psychiatry ward ni, org gila yg typical kat tepi2 jalan tu...yg jerit2, bukak baju, cederakan org...mcm abah sy yg sgt2 risau sy nk masok posting ni...

abah: lala,nnt nk tnya2 soalan ke,jangan sorang2, nnt ntah2 die cekik lala ke...jaga2!
me: baik...
abah: situ ade org jaga x??
me: ade...security situ ketat...jgn risau..hehe

we just look on surface ttg masalah org gila ni...'diorang ni gila,scary!" tp ape masalah yg org tu hadapi yg buatkan die ade masalah mental??if org normal pon sometimes can turn to be abnormal kalau diuji mcm tu...bila sy clerking, rs sedih sgt..mostly the're just like us...NORMAL! cuma tulah...masalah yg menimbun tu, di alihkan ke something else yg causing them having mental illness...

pernah dengar x, org gila dijanjikan syurga...sy pernah dengar n byk kali dengar...wallahualam, tp, sy x pelik...sbb org gila sbenarnye lebih tulus dr manusia normal...u should come n tgk sndiri keadaan dlm ward...yg mana sejak sy masok posting ni, sy byk berfikir bout LIFE...bout d real life out there...kita masih dlm kepompong hidup slesa, tp x pernah tfikir betapa ramai yg hidup dlm tekanan hidup yg kuat...sgt2 kuat!dan utk yg dapat manage their problem, the're actually a great winner!tp utk yg tergelincir, ptt ke mereka disalahkan??

do remember, dlm gelap, dlm terang, Allah sentiasa ada...kita sbg manusia yg dikurniakan akal, yg normal, dont ever discriminate others...mungkin, itu dugaan n ujian yg Allah nk beri kat diorang...yg buatkan kita amik teladan n fikirkan sesuatu...whenever we feel sad, depress, alone, do remember.. Allah wont ever leaves u...cinta yg paling sempurna!(^^,) I LOVE ALLAH...

nice is it??patient sy kasi keje skola...soh warna pe die lukis...hehe...

something GOOD can turns to be something BAD sometimes...

2009-07-17T09:54:00.000-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

today, i'll start my day with perfect smile! pagi2 buta miza da sms

"JPA da masok!"

yeaaa!!!

coz kami sume gile2 pokai nak start sem ni...ntahla duit kat mane!hehe...=PP ok, i'll plan n arrange on what should i do after the short rehabilitation class today!shopping, pegi balik serdang, went to see khaulah and g mines nak tempah spec...!ok,perfect!^^

but on d middle of the day, i'm so down! down due to my own stupidity...pegi parking merata2 and kene saman rm100!aaa~~~ni saman pertama saya and it cause a lot of regrets...nyesal sgt2!!!nk jimat 7 ringgit, kene saman 100 ringgit!haha...takot pon ade coz kene baya within 2 weeks...so, i call one of my fren yg mmg dah lame bawak kete kat sini...

"shariman, aku kene saman ngan DBKL ni...100!!cmne??"
"oh...xpe2,xyah baya...aku byk kali kene saman,xbaya pon...jgn risaula"
"yeke???aku takot gile nih!"
"xpe...lainla kalau ko nk baya...haha!wat suspen je,igt accident!"
"oih~~cukupla down kene saman...accident xlarat aku nk down dah!haha"

a bit relieve...but, betul ke xyah baya???--> ape pulak pendapat anda??plez2~~(^^,)

the night turns to be wonderful...ira blanje makan steamboat!hehehehe...thanks ira!(^^,) and abah janji nk tolong saman tu...hehhehe!=PP
dan hati kembali berbunga riang~~hehehhe...(",)Y

but whatever it is, I still believe, everything that happens must have its own reason...i do get a lesson...don't play2 with rules!hehe...rasa skali teros xnk lagi...hehe!=PP

And what strikes my mind the m0st

2009-07-15T09:23:00.001-07:00

Is...
C0MPARTMENT SYNDR0ME

i'm scared...

=(

hari LIPAS hospital serdang!=P

2009-07-11T03:49:00.000-07:00

Adess!haha…semalam memang tragedy betol…masok posting orthopaedic ni dah dengar2 sorang prof yang garang ni…tba2 semalam kene plak kelas ngan die!haha

“hello2 cockroaches!”

“u all are paralysed chicken!”

“don’t be a lamp side road!”

“Useless”

What I can say, he’s cute old man!real cute…^^ even SEMUA kene itu ini,we still think u’r so funny and cute prof! Even semua takot GILE ngan die, tapi cam enjoy sangat kelas ngan die, xsempat nk simpan dlm hati dah gelak2 balik!adess….me myself don’t take it seriously, ala, biasala tu,nk blaja…=) kene ramai2 plak tuh!haha…sometimes we did silly mistakes especially when we’re so scare!like this intelligent guy who turns so stress…

‘how many fibula in your body’

“four”

=PP

Even sy n ira sendiri pon jadi lipas arini!gara2 curi2 join ward round die…

“hey u two cockroaches!”

Lari!!!hahahaha….

Whatever it is I enjoy this posting so much…(^_^) it’s so ‘rock’!xde skema2 like before…doctor n specialist pon gile rock!

Um…xsabanye nk tunggu next week~~hehe^^

=PP

it's own reason...^^

2009-07-07T03:50:00.001-07:00

assalamuallaikum...

hari ni hari kedua dalam sem baru...i'm thinking to post d new enty yesterday,tp gile busy, so alhamdulillah hari ni ade lapang sikit...(^^,)

kami semua dah pindah hostel damai...roomate??ira...hak3!okla,posting same,sebilik pulak...however bilik mmg mcm kecik,banding dgn kolej dulu...xde tingkap, tapi gune aircond, siang malam jez sama...haha!tapi alhamdulillah, saya syukur je...wireless ade,tp lembab gile!bukak blog je laju, nk bukak friendster mmg xlepas!haha...okla tuh,insaf sket lepas ni kn...=PP so,sy dah xaktif dah friendster2 sume nih...insyaALLAH...^^

hari 1st masok asrama, byk barang nk beli...so, i drive bawak ipah,ira n miza konon2 nk g mydin (tgh pokai,belilah kat mydin,MURAH2!haha) faham2 jela tgh2 k.l mane ade parking...so,pegila lorong2 blkg nk park kete...xsangka, tempat sy park tu, lorong haji taib...lorong sang2 wanita xtulen~dah park dah!so,jalan jela sambil tgk panorama berbeza...cantik!diorg mmg cantik...sy bukan jenis yg mendiskriminasikan org, diorang pon manusia mcm kita tapi,saya terfikir, kn lebih cantik jika golongan2 ni kembali pada fitrah asal diorang...alhamdulillah la,xde kene kacau...yela,sy xrsa diorg minat perempuan!hee... and sy terfikir, lorong ni kn popular, nape xde tindakan di ambil??penuh sgt2 bilik2 hotel kecik for them which mungkin tempat maksiat...haih~

group A start with orthopaedic posting for the 1st 2 week sebelom masok psychiatric posting...ooo...baru tau!hari 1st mmg terrible as kami macam terkapai2 kat HKL, rupa2nya posting kat serdang...hehe!okla, doktor2 orthopaedic mmg baik2, then ni just intro je, 5th year nnt siap la!haha...cumanya,kene start baca anatomy balik tu yg gile malas...adeyh...huhu

semalam ade senior day...hari di mana junior2 1st year yg baru masok kene 'gertak' ngan senior espc 5th year dan lepas tu sesi perjumpaan buddy2...kenela buli sket2!mmg tradisi dah mende ni...okla,batch ni xkene terok pon...banding ngan zaman sy dulu, gile terok km kene!still igt lg, lepas habis je hari senior day tu, saya terfikir, mcm ni ke attitude budak medic?? but bila dah masok ke alam senior, baru la saya tahu,kenapa ade benda2 ni...yela,org slalu ckp budak perubatan ni berlagak, konon2 cm pandai la kn...(i myself used to think that way before!hehe) so, that day teach us how to stand on the real ground properly!menyedarkan sape kita sbenarnya...really...medic is not everything!it's not even a special course for a special person pon...who go for it, they'll get it...

i miss HOME so much...mak,abah,shida n nani...nak balik!!!=(